Honestly I don't think anyone out there reads this. So more or less this is just clearing my thoughts. But than again as i put it to a friend last week, "I am nowhere near interesting enough for people to have a crazy desire to follow what is going on in my life"
As of late this has probably felt like a kind of relationship soap opera lol Which I am just waiting for the comment from somebody out there that says man up or some kind of shit. Believe me I am trying but as far as I go i have always been the emotional one. I believe it comes with being so creative and so open and honest. Even further so I think I have become so honest that I literally just throw it all out there
Because in the past I have no doubt screwed up relationships because in my mind lying about something mini or tiny sometimes is better than not lying at all. Its come back to bite me in the ass. So essentially with me its full disclosure or nothing at all.
Tonight I think I realized even more so what kind of woman Trisha is. I am used to being the rock and the support. She rear ended some asshole after the jerk off in front of that car didn't go at a red light. Coming from where I come from I essentially wrapped my arms around her and supported her. Never in the deepest recesses of my imagination did I think of it as me not thinking she could stand on her own two feet. But in her mind that is exactly how it went
Clearly I still have much to learn about her. With each snippet of information I learn I want to learn more and more. Honestly I have never been so damn sure about loving somebody so much in my life. At times I am neurotic but for whatever reason she puts up with it. Maybe that is some kind of sign?
There is no doubt in my mind that Trisha Walburn is the one! The one i want to spend the rest of my life with. Crazily enough I almost think as early as we have been dating. If i slipped a ring on that finger of hers and asked her to marry me she would say yes of course I will. Maybe she is just looking for me to "buck up" which is hard for me we have only been dating for four months
Mm with all those trailing thoughts. Its time for me to close. Took a nap earlier. So currently as it stands I am wide awake. May or may not actually go back to bed. We shall see. So for now i am out. Hope all is well in your worlds. I'll catch ya on the flip side
As of late this has probably felt like a kind of relationship soap opera lol Which I am just waiting for the comment from somebody out there that says man up or some kind of shit. Believe me I am trying but as far as I go i have always been the emotional one. I believe it comes with being so creative and so open and honest. Even further so I think I have become so honest that I literally just throw it all out there
Because in the past I have no doubt screwed up relationships because in my mind lying about something mini or tiny sometimes is better than not lying at all. Its come back to bite me in the ass. So essentially with me its full disclosure or nothing at all.
Tonight I think I realized even more so what kind of woman Trisha is. I am used to being the rock and the support. She rear ended some asshole after the jerk off in front of that car didn't go at a red light. Coming from where I come from I essentially wrapped my arms around her and supported her. Never in the deepest recesses of my imagination did I think of it as me not thinking she could stand on her own two feet. But in her mind that is exactly how it went
Clearly I still have much to learn about her. With each snippet of information I learn I want to learn more and more. Honestly I have never been so damn sure about loving somebody so much in my life. At times I am neurotic but for whatever reason she puts up with it. Maybe that is some kind of sign?
There is no doubt in my mind that Trisha Walburn is the one! The one i want to spend the rest of my life with. Crazily enough I almost think as early as we have been dating. If i slipped a ring on that finger of hers and asked her to marry me she would say yes of course I will. Maybe she is just looking for me to "buck up" which is hard for me we have only been dating for four months
Mm with all those trailing thoughts. Its time for me to close. Took a nap earlier. So currently as it stands I am wide awake. May or may not actually go back to bed. We shall see. So for now i am out. Hope all is well in your worlds. I'll catch ya on the flip side
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