Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's going great in your world's. I am sitting here relaxing listening to the latest Shinedown album through Itunes which officially is released to the public on the 27th and its pretty fucking epic! I realized today that I cuss a lot and most of the time I will not apologize for cursing though i'll cut it down some depending upon of course the crowd I am in like for instance I am not going to cuss up a storm in front of my niece Taylor or my littlest nephew Cameron whom are both getting big now. There are very few things that can literally make my heart melt but one of them is defently my niece looking at me and saying "I love you" Kind of random I know but there you go though on my end of things life is going great things with Jolene and I are taking off like a wild fire. Its only been a month but it feels like I have been with this woman much longer than that and yes I know this without a single doubt in my mind that I love thi...

So since yesterday alot of emotions swirled around and are still swirling around as we speak. Essentially Trish and I had a normal conversation (we talked, we laughed, and we joked and even exchanged text pics) yesterday than came the one that night in which I asked her to come stay at my place on Friday night. When she told me she did not want to. I pursued it like a wild animal wanting to get the meat of it. Hell at the time I didn't truly even understand why but now I do though. Deep down through all of this confusion and not knowing I have come to realize that deep down I somewhere along the line fell out of love with Trisha. For me admitting this is the hardest thing but its true though. Do I still care alot about her? Do I still like her? The answer to both of those questions are yes without a doubt I do that is why this is so damn hard to admit for me. Long ago I accepted the reality that not many people read this and that is fine. Maybe someday somebody will stumble upon ...