Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Readers, Hey everyone as I write this I am giving the single Jekyll and Hyde by Five Finger Death Punch and right now it feels so fitting. In my life, not to say things have taken a sudden downward spiral. Things with the love of my life are still going beyond well (Ruth is a life saver and as are many of my friends for helping me through the stresses of life). When there is a part of me that wants to dig a deep hole and hide till the world ends then come up for any semblance of air I have a great job that I love that is sometimes frustrating but that comes with working in retail and sometimes dealing with the general public; you have the bad apples but then you have some awesome people whom over the past two months and a half have become some great regulars. You have that job where you just clock on and can't wait until its over and that day where everyday is a new adventure where you feel included and that's exactly how this job is. I feel like I am apart of a family. Up ...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's going great in you're worlds. I just realized that I had started and stopped several blogs but never finished one due to being super busy with finals and registering for classes and filling out job applications and accepting the reality that I am going to be taking that math class during the summer due to the fact that I got a d in it. Self doubt i'd say is fairly normal and I have went from really feeling just incompetent to a kind of acceptance that I took two difficult classes that shouldn't have been mixed up with political science and swimming class. Yes without a single doubt political science was a fascinating and enjoyable class and I even did well in it and secondly Swimming was a great class it really helped me wake up in the morning and I always felt more ready to take on the day after I finished it around 9:30 but nevertheless that time that went towards those classes I feel took away from math and secondly the business...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's well in you're worlds. So essentially I am on the cusp of a long day of studying to continue to pour this math 160 stuff into my brain and make it stick like Molasses which should cement it in there nicely and that combined with my political science material as well. Come Monday it will be a back to back 8 o'clock math and that followed by a mad brain dash to Political Science. No doubt after those tests I'll be ready to just relax and do absolutely nothing and of course pray I get that C in math and nail a solid A or B in political science. God I love this girl so damn much; what I am realizing is how much I wish I could hear about either job opportunity sooner and start the money flowing in instantly but of course it won't flow instantly though that's wishful. Come this next week I've been incredibly excited to get Light Room 4 but I believe i'll be forgoing it instead so that I can afford to bring Jolene out here...

Hey what's up everybody? As I wrote in my previous blog life is going incredibly good on my end. Still more or less on a relationship hiatus though two wonderful friends have come into my life at what feels like the perfectly right moment! Going to take a moment here to talk about the two of them which just out of kindness to them both I will not list them by name because they have children and would not want to put them in danger or anything like that because I am sure there are some odd ones out there. Without further ado i'd like to thank Margie and Vicky; two wonderful women whom over the past two months at least have helped me to see that I matter. For me letting someone into my world takes quite a bit considering what I have been through yet I trust them both completely. Hope I've helped them as much as they have helped me to feel like I belong in this wild and crazy world! Thanking them doesn't begin to do it justice they have thoroughly helped. The kin...