Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. On my end with Jolene for once in my life after yesterday I feel like I am really moving forward now. Its funny how you are like yes I got this but part of your brain is still locked up in what could potentially be later down the road. We said a lot of hurtful things back and forth too one another initially but than I realized ultimately that while I want to be furious with her its not right she really and honestly truly is looking to find herself. She's a bad person despite what I may want to say but of course the whole being split up from her is still bitter sweet as ever though and always will be. There is no doubt that she will hold a special place in my heart. Yesterday exchanged things with Jolene and than we went out to lunch at Goodwood bbq one more time and sat in our usual spot in the restaurant. Overall it was very nice but you know with everything being still fresh I wasn't in the greates...

Finally had some closure of sorts with Trisha. I am glad it wasn't a brutal break up. Essentially were going back to the basics more or less. As in doing the pre dating because currently I am thinking possibly we moved things along way too quickly now. That's the only clear rhyme or reason that I can find for all of this. Deep down I know that I still do love her more than I have ever loved anyone in my entire life. She told me, "Chris it probably will take time...I don't want you to hold yourself back or change for me". In all honesty I'd change for her in a heart beat. Its called taking small baby steps in some direction for one another. As a couple you reach out to one another. Furthermore than you communicate like crazy and figure out what bothers you about what the other person does and than you work forward from there. Another point she brought up is that she feels restricted. Understandably so she is just turning 20 years old and really wants to ...