Finally had some closure of sorts with Trisha. I am glad it wasn't a brutal break up. Essentially were going back to the basics more or less. As in doing the pre dating because currently I am thinking possibly we moved things along way too quickly now. That's the only clear rhyme or reason that I can find for all of this. Deep down I know that I still do love her more than I have ever loved anyone in my entire life. She told me, "Chris it probably will take time...I don't want you to hold yourself back or change for me".
In all honesty I'd change for her in a heart beat. Its called taking small baby steps in some direction for one another. As a couple you reach out to one another. Furthermore than you communicate like crazy and figure out what bothers you about what the other person does and than you work forward from there. Another point she brought up is that she feels restricted. Understandably so she is just turning 20 years old and really wants to "live it"
Oh I can understand that all too well. Whereas in my life I guess I am more or less just ready to find someone that I can stay with and do the whole settling down thing. In fact her and I talked about moving in together after I graduated in two years *shrugs* But things happen and who knows what could come out of this? Do I think she is the perfect match for me??? Yes without a single doubt in my mind I have never been so damn sure about something or someone like this
So we will do the dating thing. While at the same time she can also date other people. Ultimately if it is really meant to be meant to be than I truly believe that she will date somebody else and than she'll realize she is comparing them to me and furthermore that I am really that one person she wants to spend the rest of her life with. Two years is a long time but I am willing to say that by than if all goes well that I plan on popping the magic question and asking her to marry me
Overall feeling ten times better as well. No longer feeling that empty kind of deep seeded depression that I was feeling the last two days that essentially prevented me from doing a damn productive thing. Well with that I am off. Hope all is well in everyone's worlds. Catch ya on the flip side
In all honesty I'd change for her in a heart beat. Its called taking small baby steps in some direction for one another. As a couple you reach out to one another. Furthermore than you communicate like crazy and figure out what bothers you about what the other person does and than you work forward from there. Another point she brought up is that she feels restricted. Understandably so she is just turning 20 years old and really wants to "live it"
Oh I can understand that all too well. Whereas in my life I guess I am more or less just ready to find someone that I can stay with and do the whole settling down thing. In fact her and I talked about moving in together after I graduated in two years *shrugs* But things happen and who knows what could come out of this? Do I think she is the perfect match for me??? Yes without a single doubt in my mind I have never been so damn sure about something or someone like this
So we will do the dating thing. While at the same time she can also date other people. Ultimately if it is really meant to be meant to be than I truly believe that she will date somebody else and than she'll realize she is comparing them to me and furthermore that I am really that one person she wants to spend the rest of her life with. Two years is a long time but I am willing to say that by than if all goes well that I plan on popping the magic question and asking her to marry me
Overall feeling ten times better as well. No longer feeling that empty kind of deep seeded depression that I was feeling the last two days that essentially prevented me from doing a damn productive thing. Well with that I am off. Hope all is well in everyone's worlds. Catch ya on the flip side
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