This week. This time apart from Trisha. The battle to save things so to speak. I thought would be easier than this but as my best friend Randy put it to me, "Chris she obviously needs to figure out alot of things. So in all honesty it will take alot of time. With that time you'll start doubting yourself and the potential for a relationship as a whole" which as I have found this week he is dead on
Its nuts the things you'll agree to when it truly comes to a woman whom you love with every single particle of your being and more. I agreed to an Open Relationship. But the first aspect of that I told her is that her and I must be solid though. Otherwise from what i read and all the research I did not last night but the night before last was spent researching and reading and understanding what I would potentially be getting myself into things will not work.
The more I read and the more I learned I am actually leaning towards an Okay. Which for me I thought hell would freeze over before anything like that came around. But I am willing to walk down that road. In fact I would say I am even sold on the idea. Because essentially I realize that her and I are really at different points in our lives. Personally I am ready to find someone that eventually here I can really settle down with and look at starting a family and all that jazz (bare in mind not for a while on the family thing).
Essentially the ball is in her court now. As I told her when she is ready to really sit down and talk about it. I am ready but until than not going to mention any sort of relationship stuff though. Its going to be hard as hell for me to do so but I am going to stick to my guns on this one. After all don't want to frighten her away anymore than I probably already have to an extent.
Ultimately I will support her in whatever decision she makes. Would I like us to be able to move forward and that "time" to continue yes i would without a single doubt. Its a decision though that is more or less out of my hands. I can plead and all that stuff but that won't do any good though. (yes sharing this with her too here is a trip inside my head for you Trisha)
Now for those quandaries onto the GREAT NEWS! After all kinds of Chemo treatments my dad's cancer is officially gone. Damn talk about feeling like a giant weight has been lifted from my shoulders. With that I am off for now. Hope all is well in your worlds. Hey and hope you all enjoyed today's trip inside my head. I'll catch you on the flip side
Its nuts the things you'll agree to when it truly comes to a woman whom you love with every single particle of your being and more. I agreed to an Open Relationship. But the first aspect of that I told her is that her and I must be solid though. Otherwise from what i read and all the research I did not last night but the night before last was spent researching and reading and understanding what I would potentially be getting myself into things will not work.
The more I read and the more I learned I am actually leaning towards an Okay. Which for me I thought hell would freeze over before anything like that came around. But I am willing to walk down that road. In fact I would say I am even sold on the idea. Because essentially I realize that her and I are really at different points in our lives. Personally I am ready to find someone that eventually here I can really settle down with and look at starting a family and all that jazz (bare in mind not for a while on the family thing).
Essentially the ball is in her court now. As I told her when she is ready to really sit down and talk about it. I am ready but until than not going to mention any sort of relationship stuff though. Its going to be hard as hell for me to do so but I am going to stick to my guns on this one. After all don't want to frighten her away anymore than I probably already have to an extent.
Ultimately I will support her in whatever decision she makes. Would I like us to be able to move forward and that "time" to continue yes i would without a single doubt. Its a decision though that is more or less out of my hands. I can plead and all that stuff but that won't do any good though. (yes sharing this with her too here is a trip inside my head for you Trisha)
Now for those quandaries onto the GREAT NEWS! After all kinds of Chemo treatments my dad's cancer is officially gone. Damn talk about feeling like a giant weight has been lifted from my shoulders. With that I am off for now. Hope all is well in your worlds. Hey and hope you all enjoyed today's trip inside my head. I'll catch you on the flip side
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