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Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're worlds. On my end I am still mentally coming to terms with the fact that I will no longer be attending Boise State unless I can afford it and on this note while going too school and only working part time I haven't been able to necessarily afford to go to school so my folks have been taking care of it and i've been paying them back. Having so few hours right now prior too i couldn't put myself through school and secondly the deal from my dad was, "Chris if you get F's in these classes you are done!"; low and behold I checked my grades and I got an F in not just Business Statistics but Calculus as well.
Yesterday I withdrew from the classes at Boise State, I changed my work schedule at Gordman's to full time (here is to hoping I get some solid hours), and lastly now I am going to start paying rent to my parents which is a real way of driving home the fact that I failed. For me more than anything else is its knowing that I failed and can't throw the blame on anyone else. Hell I was the one that choose to lose myself into photography (should have put it on the back burner) and I was the one that focused on watching just a little bit of this show or that show and I was the one that read just a little bit of this novel or that novel finishing a few during the semester and lastly downloading this music or that music.
Why have I not been admonished by those around me? Sara told me she was friends with me for more than my education and the grades on my classes and that she doesn't think any less of me and last night I hung out with my friend Travis which was good but partially my head was in the clouds as I was looking at him thinking I know I am not that great you can move on you've got better people you could be spending time with. Its difficult not too wander back into that dark place like I did with Jolene partially and even more so before that with Trisha because its familiar. Instead of bogging down and closing the blinds like I could have and instead of having anything to drink I ended up going to Shari's last night but of course that set my diet back but I needed something though.
Truck yesterday up to me needing something to get myself out of a funk and overall as a whole I really did have a good day and it felt great going to the y. I am determined to keep working out and also I am determined to work my ass off and own my job and make it my best and lastly get my drivers license. I only wish I knew what was ahead and in store for me that would be awesome this whole not knowing and now embarking into a land that I have not known since I started going to Boise State too begin with when I graduated high school in 2004.
Well I know this is fairly short but other than playing a bunch of Assassins Creed 3 and overall hanging out with friends and also rented the game Black Ops II which is an damn good sequel so far I haven't been up too much. Hope all is going great i'll catch ya on the flip side
Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're worlds. On my end I am still mentally coming to terms with the fact that I will no longer be attending Boise State unless I can afford it and on this note while going too school and only working part time I haven't been able to necessarily afford to go to school so my folks have been taking care of it and i've been paying them back. Having so few hours right now prior too i couldn't put myself through school and secondly the deal from my dad was, "Chris if you get F's in these classes you are done!"; low and behold I checked my grades and I got an F in not just Business Statistics but Calculus as well.
Yesterday I withdrew from the classes at Boise State, I changed my work schedule at Gordman's to full time (here is to hoping I get some solid hours), and lastly now I am going to start paying rent to my parents which is a real way of driving home the fact that I failed. For me more than anything else is its knowing that I failed and can't throw the blame on anyone else. Hell I was the one that choose to lose myself into photography (should have put it on the back burner) and I was the one that focused on watching just a little bit of this show or that show and I was the one that read just a little bit of this novel or that novel finishing a few during the semester and lastly downloading this music or that music.
Why have I not been admonished by those around me? Sara told me she was friends with me for more than my education and the grades on my classes and that she doesn't think any less of me and last night I hung out with my friend Travis which was good but partially my head was in the clouds as I was looking at him thinking I know I am not that great you can move on you've got better people you could be spending time with. Its difficult not too wander back into that dark place like I did with Jolene partially and even more so before that with Trisha because its familiar. Instead of bogging down and closing the blinds like I could have and instead of having anything to drink I ended up going to Shari's last night but of course that set my diet back but I needed something though.
Truck yesterday up to me needing something to get myself out of a funk and overall as a whole I really did have a good day and it felt great going to the y. I am determined to keep working out and also I am determined to work my ass off and own my job and make it my best and lastly get my drivers license. I only wish I knew what was ahead and in store for me that would be awesome this whole not knowing and now embarking into a land that I have not known since I started going to Boise State too begin with when I graduated high school in 2004.
Well I know this is fairly short but other than playing a bunch of Assassins Creed 3 and overall hanging out with friends and also rented the game Black Ops II which is an damn good sequel so far I haven't been up too much. Hope all is going great i'll catch ya on the flip side
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