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Never thought anyone would ever really read this

Readers,

Hey everyone I hope you're doing great. Years ago when I started penning this online journal I never thought for a second anyone would ever want to read this or continue to read it either. Honestly I decided to let a friend read it and I was surprised when they came back years ago and said, "Wow this is good I can totally relate. You need to share this!". Part of me in that moment thought you're nuts I am ripping down the curtains and sharing everything about me...from thoughts of heart break, to cooping with thoughts of possible suicide (where I battled with beating myself up, don't worry that beast is in its cage and has been now for some time), to dealing with the frustrations of the big bad dating world, my own personal feelings regarding school and my possible failings at it, and happiness there was plenty of that and is plenty of that. So, I started gradually just sharing current blogs, only to have people actually go back and explore everything from the beginning when I started out writing this. For those who have stuck it out and poured over my thoughts and explored my head and still are sticking around, "Thank you", and for those new readers, "Welcome this is me, a sort of online journal and you're welcome to explore away. At this point in my life I'd say I am a good person but at times I would say I have both been a good guy and a villain and lastly that npc character who does nothing in a story". 

This came about because I learned I have new readers, my future in laws; who threw me an great early birthday. My future mother in law made me a great dinner of yummy Mexican food and a delicious cake. Quickly followed by presents, one was a Grumpy Cat's guide to life which is hilarious! Then came the big present, I was thinking to myself cool! This is going to be something bad ass I won't expect. Large wrapped red package equals a giant red herring, hell apparently these arch enemies read a lot of mystery novels and mini gag books and I in some part was cast as the court jester. I tore off the red paper and was shocked and stunned to find myself looking at a giant package of 1000 rolls of toilet paper! I was like what the fuck? lol Look a little bit further I discovered a present stuck in the middle of one of the bags of rolls. It was an nice mug from shutter fly of photos of Ruth and I *smiles* I couldn't be happier and hell now we have a bunch of toilet paper. So it was truly a great early birthday *tips hat* Thank you guys

Today I am working from noon till five cashiering and yesterday I was supposed to be on the floor in home, but alas ended up cashiering the whole time because it was very busy. I talked in my last blog about the calm before the storm, but there is nothing...no calm...I think everyone has this theory that if they all go shopping early it won't be so bad *shrugs* Oh well my day goes by fast that way so I can't really complain too much. So, I am working today and tomorrow and then I am working on Thanksgiving from 5:45 till 2:30 am followed by the next day I am working from noon till five pm then I am back at 3 till 11:15 pm. Yes, bring on the insanity! The good thing is my paycheck in between this next week and the following week will no doubt be very nice

Thanksgiving this year will be mildly crazy, we're doing part of it at my future in laws for lunch and back to my parents house for food before its off to work. All those calories, my brains screaming I need to break it up so I don't gain a ton of weight for thanksgiving. Lately I've gotten slightly away from eating entirely healthy but with that being said I am trying to be more conscious of it. Hell I am back down to 160 lbs right now, as many of you know that's not exactly where I would like to be *shrugs* I am going to get back into regularly doing push ups and sit ups, maybe revisit it after the insanity of thanksgiving...just give myself a mental break and say, "Dude you'll probably go kinda nuts...so come back to this after there is no point in mentally flogging yourself"

Yesterday, I got incredibly busy so hence why I am just now coming back to picking up with writing this a day later. Getting my caffine fix and continuing this while listening to the new single "Rock Or Bust", from the new AC DC album which comes out on the 2nd so I'll do a few review then, but with that being said its a solid song and sounds like Back To Black (so a solid return to a great album and sound and they haven't lost it). So, I picked up a shift today and will be working a noon till eight fifteenish (we'll see how much later I am actually there). Wow, so right now it is just three more days until my birthday and two more days until the craziness that will no doubt be thanksgiving and also be the working over night as well 

Right now I will be working at Gordmans from 5:45 till 2:30 am, so of course I will probably need a boost of caffine or something or just maybe I'll be running off the high of the nuts that will no doubt be a ton of people shopping! The irony is that I have no doubt seventy five percent of those people who post on their facebooks how terrible it is stores are open thanksgiving will be out shopping. Personally, I don't really care I will get to have my Thanksgiving this year and you may as well go shopping if stores are open *shrugs* That's my two cents worth but I still think it would be funny to accept people into the store simply based upon whether someone posted something about how evil it is for people to work thanksgiving...aw sir or aw mamn we need to keep you fucking honest, we see you posted this regarding Thanksgiving...you can go home now, really its all right 

So this year, Gordmans will be open 24 hrs and I am back in on my birthday. From noon till five and then the plan is too go out to eat at the Texas Roadhouse and maybe grab a movie, I say maybe because I simply may be too exhausted to go out and see a movie for my birthday *shrugs* We'll see the best part is going to be the very very nice paycheck this following week in which I have no doubt I'll be working a bunch of hours

Well that's all for now, I have no doubt I will have a great birthday with such a loving fiance and than followed by doing my birthday on Sunday with the rest of my family and also hopefully my fiance can be there as well. Those butterflies never go away if you find that special someone and in this case that is Ruth, I have no doubt we'll be together forever and I cannot walk down the aisle together. Have a great turkey day and if you're working on black friday good luck and if you're shopping it have fun! I'll catch ya on the flip side

ps: I am doing the No Shave November insanity and right now semi digging the beard...but its getting bad though. When I am done I will post photos in the stages   



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