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Hey everyone I hope all's going great in you're worlds. On my end the weekend came rapidly to a close; far too rapidly for my taste. The title of this describes my feeling of the pressure of succeeding on this coming test on Thursday in Calculus. I feel like I am standing underneath that piano and like in one of those dreams where you're legs are jello I can't move to save my life and hell I can hear the ropes snapping above me its going to splatter me across the pavement any moment now! The other aspect that describes why I feel just this way is because today is the day when I meet Jolene's dad as just not some guy who offered to take their photographs more than eight months ago at the Judy Collin's concert before it started right in front of the stage and shot from the hip before offering with, "Don't worry I won't cut you're heads off when I take the photo"

Just got a word from my girlfriend earlier apparently they are leaving later than intended so in a matter of a few hours i'll be going out to lunch with her and her father and I am nervous as hell to put it lightly. I am not just going out with her to a nice lunch its the big time. I am going out to lunch with her and her father the same man who after the concert came up to me and thanked me for taking his families photograph in front of the stage before the show started and of course I told him it wasn't a problem than he stepped aside and there she was. The girl who I love so much today. The girl who makes me feel so alive. The girl who truly awoke the hopeless romantic in me again who I had buried in a deep grave somewhere because after all i'd been through I was done with that junk.

Right now I am sitting here listening to Trace Adkins album Proud To Be Here while working away on math because of course math is on its way here just like that and so is the lunch with her and her dad. Just have to think positively and find a way to shush my racing mind for just a little bit. My mind's busy thinking about how all the many ways things could tumble out of control and I could lose my own footing on things. Whew feel a tad bit better having cleared my head from that stuff.

This past weekend while going fast was great overall I beat the game Gears Of War III which rocked and overall it is a damn good game series i'd highly recommend playing it and watched the movie Man On A Ledge with my mom which is a damn good movie i'd give it a 5 +. Yesterday was a great Father's Day it was great to spend it with my family I love them all very much we went to the Hippity Hop and had a picnic than followed that up later by having salmon for dinner.


Well that is a wrap up of things for now. I'll catch ya on the flip side   
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