Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Readers, Hey everyone. I hope all is going great with you. Right now its 4:47 and its the 25 of June. I have till part of August to knock out my calculus (via Khan Academy). Reality is I am close but not close enough. As I am nearing these more difficult concepts I feel like I am slamming my head against a fucking brick wall...its like fucking hell I have taken this class more than six times this should be easy as hell! But here I am flailing around in the dark...right now I don't know if I can do this...hell if I can't do this...that's it all these years at Boise State are literally for goddamned nothing. Right now I feel like the worlds biggest failure. Trying to use this to hopefully just clear my head and feel better but its not really working though...just getting more fired up! Right now I just want to capitalize the word FUCK (over and over again) till this screen is filled with them and nothing else fits. Right now I want to get into a car and get the hell out of ...

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great with you. Last night, I was cuddled up with my girlfriend Ruth and we're almost off to dreamland. When it surfaced. I'd personally dealt with it, or at least I thought I had. Hell I went through it and put away inside a box. My brother mike was home what else was there for me to worry about. I hope to hell he is going to get better. Because there is apart of me that wishes I could go back to a few days ago. My brother Mike and I took an trip to Mcall this past weekend and we're supposed to go get some work done on the cabin. The stairs are starting to fall apart so my brothers went up previously and took them apart. Hell we listened to some older The Offspring and even stopped for some pizza at the toll station pizza place and everything was going great! That's the thing, reality is an fucking bitch, reality is chaos is just around the corner. This chaos came in my brother trying to move the trailer filled with lumber an...

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great with you. I was looking at the calender this morning and it hit me. Tomorrow Ruth and I will be together exactly three months. In the past, I've been told there is that honeymoon period in which you will feel like a little kid, the butterflies and everything and than it will gradually just stop. But of course that never meant you didn't still love the person. But with her, I still get literal butterflies and day in and day out she makes me feel like a little kid. I know counting three months as a landmark sounds well insane, but with us its different she truly is incredibly loving and incredibly supportive. We have so much in common and what we may or my not have in common we still get behind one another in that shared passion or love for something. Yes, here I go gushing again. But I ask myself constantly how did I get so lucky? She responds with, "Because you were yourself". I was myself because she was herself and I...

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in your worlds. On my end, its actually going really good. I wrapped up this semester with an C in both finance and Supply Chain Management. I passed both classes and in many ways I really do have Ruth to thank for being there to support me throughout the whole ordeal. Previous semesters, I'd have shut down and done something other than school but she really in a lot of ways helped me keep my nose to the grindstone. I studied, studied and studied. When at last it rolled around for me to go take my exams I was so damned nervous and thought for sure due to how I've done in the past that I would fall incredibly short! But, no I did it. At this point, I have to dispute my gpa and the number of credits at Boise State. But other than that I literally have four more classes left and I will nab an fucking bacholers in business administration and one in human resources. Excuse the f word but it still kind of feels like I am walking throu...

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great with you. On my end, I am sitting here watching the rain fall outside and having an incredibly hard time kicking my ass into gear. Its insane, to be perfectly honest because I am so close to being done with this semester...yes I have to study harder for my finance class but doing well in both classes is fucking possible though. But there is that little voice in my head that is saying, "Dude just play some candy crush or something. Because you will fuck this up big time bucko". I know you're supposed to think positive. But as you know these past several semesters have been rough as hell for me. The hardest thing is I am so close to graduating its not even funny. Literally, I have to knock out my calculus (via khan academy), then I can go test out of that at the College of Western Idaho. Then after that I have just three more classes and I will graduate with an dual bachelors in business and and in human resources. As I wr...

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in your worlds. On my end, life has been incredibly busy in between working some and diving head over heels into school. I knocked out my retirement project, I knocked out the quiz for the goal, and I knocked out my stock market project (several huge things all done). One by one, I've been turning those things in and thankfully just submitted my retirement project and also my quiz which I have no doubt I will do great on both. Today, I met with my teacher for Supply Chain Management. At this point, even if I get a 57 percent on my final exam which I have done a lot better on my other ones I will get an C in class. Got the results back on a test I took in finance and it was brutal, but on the plus side I still have a solid C. I have no doubt I will get the full 100 pts on both projects. Right now overall with regard to school I am sitting pretty After that this summer, I am planning to get calculus knocked out the rest of the way a...

Readers, Hey everyone hope alls going great. Thank you to those whom have actually been continuing to follow this even though the background was kinda crazy. I decided after how many blogs I have written to reward you guys with a simplifier format. Its simple yet I still think looks pretty slick though. Now you can read through my blog without having to take a break to forgo the massive amount of motion sickness of whatever the hell you're conflicted with. I have certainly noticed the massive amount of views as well so thank you very much. Its interesting when I started writing this as it got more personal...I wrote this for myself. Then I got daring and decided to share my thoughts and before long everyone was wanting to read it. Personally, I can't thank all of you enough for sticking with me through my trials and tribulations, joys, adventures and hardships. Hell I can't believe I have now been writing this thing for as long as I have. In all honesty, I truly do hope...