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Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (pass on this one its literally just a grr hulk smash post filled with quite a bit of bad language)

Readers,

Hey everyone. I hope all is going great with you. Right now its 4:47 and its the 25 of June. I have till part of August to knock out my calculus (via Khan Academy). Reality is I am close but not close enough. As I am nearing these more difficult concepts I feel like I am slamming my head against a fucking brick wall...its like fucking hell I have taken this class more than six times this should be easy as hell! But here I am flailing around in the dark...right now I don't know if I can do this...hell if I can't do this...that's it all these years at Boise State are literally for goddamned nothing. Right now I feel like the worlds biggest failure. Trying to use this to hopefully just clear my head and feel better but its not really working though...just getting more fired up! Right now I just want to capitalize the word FUCK (over and over again) till this screen is filled with them and nothing else fits. Right now I want to get into a car and get the hell out of dodge and never look back. Right now I want to go in a room and smash a shit ton of plates. Right now I want to crank up some angry music and yell with it...going to get out of my house and go for a walk (walking helps clear my head and usually helps me actually calm down)

Forgive this post, pass it if you would like. Just incredibly frustrated with myself and with this math class. Going for a walk then back here to get some school work done and cranked out. Catch ya on the flip side

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