Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Normalcy that is what life has become as of late. So far my classes are going good but than again I have only been going to school for less than a week considering I started back on Monday and today is only now Thursday. Feels like just any other semester except I am single and truly content with my life right now like I have never been prior to this point. Hoping to grab this one last class that I am still on the waiting list for but short of that its all good and  not in that its all good shits hitting the fan but i am going to have a positive attitude because somehow that will stop the shit from hitting the fan and maybe at least limit the splatter effect. Tomorrow its off to the Western Idaho Fair to go see the band Cheap Trick play live. Yes, I know like myself many of you or many of you actually may know they recorded more than a few hits but I was only keen on one real song that one being "I need you" and of course it follows up the opening with, "I need you to ...

Hey my readers how goes it? As I wrote on August 7th things are looking up and they continue to do so. Overall i have learned several things about myself and continue to do so. The biggest thing of all is this I say I am burnt out on love and for once in my life its completely true. That needy part of me screams you need somebody Chris to be happy but the reality is very different from that! The truth of the matter is I do not need somebody to be happy. Eventually when I work myself out with all my kinks and figure out myself more and figure out what I want in life than i will pursue romance and love with a kind of wild drive like no other. Billy Madison reminds us that its time to go back to school. Next week its back to Boise State for me in a semester that I will rock. Right here you are seeing a resolve to really knock math out of the park and all my other classes as well. There will be no failing this semester i am going to put my one hundred and fifty thousand per...

Life makes sense right now. It continues to keep making sense after it feels like I fought a huge war over the past months with myself to come out on top of it all. I can't begin to thank those people who kept me sane when I just wanted to shut the world out and close all the curtains. Currently listening to the new Trace Atkins cd it is pretty good so far (check it out) and relaxing. Mmm where has this summer gone? It feels like just yesterday I started up at summer school and than here I am about to start back up with another semester at bsu and for once i am not worried about a thing. Over this summer I have come to find more than love; I've found myself again learned that I am pretty damn awesome myself. This is fairly shortish but needless to say I had a wonderful weekend though and actually look forward to starting back up with classes. Its kind of funny how I have glanced back at Trisha's profile and pretty much honestly don't know what I ever saw in her honest...

Hey what's up everybody? As I wrote in my previous blog life is going incredibly good on my end. Still more or less on a relationship hiatus though two wonderful friends have come into my life at what feels like the perfectly right moment! Going to take a moment here to talk about the two of them which just out of kindness to them both I will not list them by name because they have children and would not want to put them in danger or anything like that because I am sure there are some odd ones out there. Without further ado i'd like to thank Margie and Vicky; two wonderful women whom over the past two months at least have helped me to see that I matter. For me letting someone into my world takes quite a bit considering what I have been through yet I trust them both completely. Hope I've helped them as much as they have helped me to feel like I belong in this wild and crazy world! Thanking them doesn't begin to do it justice they have thoroughly helped. The kin...

Wow its been practically exactly a month since I wrote my last blog on here. For once in a good long while   I can truly say I am Happy! Ecstatic! Feel like nothing can bring me down and looking back on all of that with Trisha well it was fun and eh it didn't last that is sometimes how life works. At this point in my life I am at a kind of crossroads in things pertaining to looking for a job, on the verge of in a month starting back up at Boise State for another semester (hoping i get all the classes I want that would rock). Can I say for sure where I will be a year from now? No, I can't at all and for once in my life I am seriously okay with the inability to control everything around me. Currently I am full of content with the world around me. Just this past week went to Mayhem Fest which rocked. Godsmack was incredible live and Sully Erna dedicated the song The Enemy to those Navy Seals whom killed Osama Bin Laden which I thought was very cool. Disturbed was great to boot,...

Hey everyone I hope all is well with you. Its about 7:58 and on Tuesday here I have my second exam in biology. Here is to hoping all the solid studying is really going to pay off in a big way for this test. So far I am thoroughly enjoying my biology class though it goes incredibly fast and toss that in there with the biology lab as well to boot. Of course both are a repeat so its not quite as thrilling persay but i feel like i am understanding everything alot more which is very nice. Got all my stuff back and genuinely for the first time in a long time I literally feel happy; a kind of happiness I don't think i have known existed for a long time. Though in the relationship world and interest world I am in absolutely no rush to throw myself back onto the said horse. Clearly after those several months of being so low that at times I considered kissing the world good bye (don't worry i have dealt with my issues of suicide) and realize that there is nothing worth killing myself ...

Its going on 1:04 in the morning and like a kind of irony its now crystal clear Trisha moved on in a big way. Several months after her and I were finished she has found someone else lol A kind of funny he he comes to mind as we joked before we posted it on facebook, "ooo its official they are dating on facebook" but of course I guess i shouldn't expect any less from her though its how it goes sometimes clearly and not everything is in your control or hands or whatever. That's that I guess as I sit here and contemplate and wonder why I ever felt any sort of emotions for her at all? Furthermore wondering if the four-five months were even anything real. Considering how quickly she moved on just like that. Oh well those are answers better left unanswered. At this point I just really want my stuff back and really don't want anything to do with her at all after everything oils itself out. In the real world I just started up at summer school biology and so far that s...