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Hello good bye that's how it goes sometimes

Its going on 1:04 in the morning and like a kind of irony its now crystal clear Trisha moved on in a big way. Several months after her and I were finished she has found someone else lol A kind of funny he he comes to mind as we joked before we posted it on facebook, "ooo its official they are dating on facebook" but of course I guess i shouldn't expect any less from her though its how it goes sometimes clearly and not everything is in your control or hands or whatever.

That's that I guess as I sit here and contemplate and wonder why I ever felt any sort of emotions for her at all? Furthermore wondering if the four-five months were even anything real. Considering how quickly she moved on just like that. Oh well those are answers better left unanswered. At this point I just really want my stuff back and really don't want anything to do with her at all after everything oils itself out.

In the real world I just started up at summer school biology and so far that seems to be going really good its just going really incredibly fast. So requires alot of actual studying outside of class because the class kind of goes far too fast to actually take solid notes. My first exam in class is actually this coming Tuesday so wish me luck! Happy news tomorrow going to hang out with my best friend Jared and his wife they just came in from Idaho

Furthermore coming up here June 28th Queensryche's new album is coming out and the first several tracks I have heard so far I am really liking a ton. But than again I am for sure a die hard Queensryche fan i have seen them eight times in concert and met Geoff Tate the lead singer and Scott Rockenfield as well. Was incredibly impressed with how down to earth Geoff was.

Out of all of this crazily enough I am even more determined to find that person to love. The hopeless romantic has oddly enough taken a firmer hold on things. Eventually down the road i want to get married and have a few children and live in a wonderful home etc but of course I am not so traditional that i cannot split up cooking with that person etc. Its an open road and I am just going to work on finding myself really because that is what will attract others ultimately that i understand more of myself.

Well for now I am going to cut this off. Potentially get some of that sleep eye. Hope all is well in your world's. I'll catch ya on the flip side

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