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Introspection time and a good song

Readers:

Hey everyone I hope all's well on your end of things. Today I am feeling "off" and not exactly sure why that is the frustrating thing. One of those off feelings where the drive to seriously tackle anything is more or less grounded. I mean earlier got here about 8:40 and literally messed around on face book instead of getting on math or studying political science. Part of it I think is the acceptance that I've worked my ass off in business statistics and literally I think there is no way that I am going to pass it even if pigs learn to fly and all the sky for a day rains mountain dew (two impossibilities).

Thank god my digital camera where I left it on the bus was still there *brushes brow* I think a big part of things is the fact that I haven't heard back from Walmart about when the interviews will be done so as many of you know the getting a job; even more so an internship because that will help me when I graduate from Boise State in the long run. Part of me is feeling like a tad bit of a failure like I have tried and tried again and everyone around me seems to get the statistics and will more than likely pass but I am like okay I don't get it that means I just need to work more problems and even doing that I fall short.

Yes I realize as my best friend Mark has indicated and my awesome girlfriend who seriously makes me feel like a god has indicated me failing stats is not a sign of stupidity in the least far from it in fact. So setting all that muckity muck of feeling like a kind of bum more or less they are correct. Hell at the end of the day #'s are not my strong point far from it! I am more the right brain the creative side. The photographer, the writer and as my gf said, "What dumb ass could write like you do? and really grab everyone's attention" these are things that clearly I need to keep in perspective.

I'd advise starting a blog of you're own like this it really helps though of course hopefully everyone is cool with a bit of introspection from time to time like this lol Because god only knows I probably do that sort of thing a lot because I have found that blogging like this; writing an online journal like this helps me clear my thoughts and in doing so would help someone else to do the same as well. For the first time in a good long time while school may be difficult i am incredibly lucky to have such a loving and supportive girlfriend; for that I thank her and cannot thank her enough.


Only four more weeks until I am out for the summer and I am going to crack down and if nothing comes from this job defently get on the ball and hunt for another and may end up doing summer school for statistics which would be easier probably due to the fact that I would only be taking one class literally so that would rock we'll see how that all plays out. For now I leave you with a great song that reminds me of how lucky I truly am in life. I'll catch ya on the flip side 

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