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Overview sorta with a bump in the road

Readers:

Hey everybody I hope all's well in your lives. Its been back to the daily grind of school so to speak. I understand several things now right off the bat:

1) Math is going to take a lot of work
2) Business Statistics is going to be difficult more than likely because I am bad at simple math
3) Swimming is going to be a great exercise class

Those are my three random acknowledgments that and yes as Valentines Day rapidly approaches on the backs of hell hounds with large razor sharp teeth with the ability to breathe fucking fire I am going to be incredibly lonely its sort of an inevitability but I don't need somebody else to be happy though. Yes eventually i'd love to find somebody but for now take it easy maybe some casual dating and other stuff but absolutely NOTHING serious.

As it is life's thrown a stick into the wheels of success potentially I have to appeal a hold on my financial aid because of a low cumulative GPA. Whew this is where I am trying not too be too hard on myself which is difficult but I am working day by day when something doesn't go perfectly not to take it out on myself like I have in the past. Though as far as a reason goes extenuating circumstances goes it is going to be my giving up on school when I was depressed in April over my break up with Trisha. Apparently its a good solid reason so I am thinking that should play into it well. I don't usually ask people to pray for me but please do that for me that would be awesome so this works itself out.

Currently I am relaxing drinking a vanilla latte looking outside of the ILC (interactive learning center) here at Boise state and the rains coming down but its not as cold as it has been certainly which is kind of nice! One of the nicest things is its not as gray as it has been. Yesterday was spent trying to dredge through this reading for political science already know somebody who is apparently not reading through it at all. Hell I am going to read through it so I can have an upper hand in class because for an introduction class this political science class seems like its going to contain a lot of work which is a pain in the arse and I swear my teacher sounds like Sheldon's enemy from The Big Bang Theory its hard to take him seriously at all *crosses fingers*

On today's agenda I have Political Science at 12:40 and after that class Calculus at 1:40. I am going to hop off of here and see about tackling this reading I have to do. But if you have not watched any of the show The Firm i'd highly recommend checking it out its only 3 episodes in and as my friend put it he doesn't watch legal drama's because there boring this is far from boring it keeps ya on the edge of your seat. I'll catch ya on the flip side

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