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Guess I should be glad there was no beating around the bush

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Hey everyone I hope all's well in you're world's. I just got home from hanging out with my friend Jordan and his girl friend Kelsey and my friend Mark and his wife Shae we ate some ice cream and watched the third transformers movie which yes I have seen previously so it wasn't a huge surprise but it was fun though. On the Bobbie side apparently there will be no solid conclusion at all she entirely deleted me as a friend today!

Well that is just rich so to speak considering I was more than willing to figure her out and hang out but she cancelled on me this last week. I said okay sure you're tight on funds that is fine than she gave me no answer whatsoever saying she didn't know when she wanted to hang out at all. I am just more frustrated with the whole situation more than anything else after all its not like we were fucking dating but an explanation would have been great?!!!????

Apparently though somethings are a lot to ask for. Yes I partially screwed the pooch but I honestly believed we were having a good time when we did hang out and I truly put some thought into the Christmas gift I gave her knowing she loved Lord Of The Rings and she didn't get me anything (which is all fine and well she was strapped for cash). What was great for me was seeing that shit eating grin on her face when she opened the gift that was better than anything.

Whatever if anything this has taught me to be more weary with people as a whole considering part of me thought things were rotten in Denmark whatever it was I didn't want to see it. I truly deep down believed Bobbie was somehow different than the rest *shrugs* Oh well time to move on and keep kicking ass and taking names I am not going to let this bump in the road slow me up.

Of course it does leave me questioning the person that I am though? It leaves me wondering who I am and what I am all about. That's something I am obviously going to have to pin down more. Mmm well its back to the land of fun so to speak and just take it easy after all I am in no rush to get into a serious relationship. Hopefully this is a lesson to the lot of you. I'll catch ya on the flip side

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