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Why hello there the past my old friend and hello the future

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Hey everybody. I know another blog? Crazzzyyy!!! Considering I usually break this stuff up more but oh well this is a place to clear my head of all the things rushing through it. Of course in doing so I hope I make you all realize that there is nothing wrong with clearing your own heads and maybe I have inspired a few of you to start your own blog or just let it all out with a close friend so it doesn't drive you batty at the end.

In my life right now I am at a point where I am realizing that I am feeling lonely due to the fact that around this time actually Christmas Eve to be exact I had somebody. That somebody was Trisha. Of course in ways I've moved forward and am okay though of course to say she doesn't cross my mind from time to time would be a bold faced lie. Still even now it feels like just yesterday her and I started and than we ended in an epic train crash *smiles* Life was rough during those times but I am better for it and have survived I am here to take on the world so to speak.

Oh I have no doubt in my mind that this will pass and I'll be better so to speak. Its just tough is all right now. But I can do this coming up here soon its back to the land of Boise State. Christmas was awesome and well spent with family as I mentioned in the blog and that greatest gift being Cameron it was magical holding him in my arms like that. Something I will not soon forget! Loving my new lap top and I made good use my Ebay gift card getting Final Destination 5, the new michael connelly novel, the new tom clancy, and lastly the new tami hoag novel.

Adding some stuff as we speak because I realized that I had made an error and didn't quite write everything I wanted to either. So I am officially all caught up on the show Dexter talk about a crazy season ending, watched all of the show Boardwalk Empire season two that rocked, The Walking Dead. I have seen Captain America which yes was without a doubt the best super hero movie of the year in my mind i've also seen the movie Xmen first class which was solid i'd say check it out for sure.

Mmm all the days are folding into one another on the brink of a new year in which the end of the worlder's will be proven very wrong. I hope everyone has a wonderful new years and please drive safe and all that stuff there is no sense in spending the night in jail. I'll catch ya on the flip side

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