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Putting Something Into Words Makes It Real

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Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're worlds. On my end, I had the best day I have had in a long time with a woman whom focused all her attention on me and listened to everything I had to say. We literally chatted for several hours without a care in the world and it was an incredibly remarkable feeling because it feels like we clicked. At the end of the evening, we kissed, and I felt like I was a star struck kid with a crush getting that first big kiss and my whole world literally just stood still. Writing this now, it kind of seems like a dream or something but it really happened and I am also smiling as well. Honestly, I don't know what will come from things but we're both into one another that much is crystal clear but at the same time both of us are understandably reserved considering what we've both mutually been through in the past

I am semi reluctant to make anything crystal clear here because I am still feeling things out with her and am not sure what will happen between the two of us. But I do know this she seems to really like me and vice versa. We click and we can talk about everything under the sun. A part of me is worried about this just being a thing of the past considering how things have gone before with my bad luck in love. Just started the song "That's My Kind Of Night" by Luke Bryan and its putting a smile upon my face as I recall listening to this in her car and singing along. Its funny those memories that attach them to songs for me that is a big thing because I think music is powerful as hell

Now one thing I feel I need to address before I put this to bed so to speak and I also hit the hay because I have an early morning tomorrow. Its back to school I go! Finance at 9 am tomorrow and overall feeling good about this stocks evaluation stuff and I have even started to tackle the calculus via khan acad online.A true friend is somebody you can count on to be there if there is a moment of doubt and also someone who can also count on you to be there as well for them whether in person or just to lend an ear. Over the years, I have made several friends and made many what I would say are true friends *tips hat* For you guys I consider myself lucky (you guys non gender specific)

With that I am off for now yes this was a shorter update on things but I think it needed to be written because I am also feeling a lot better with regard to my racing thoughts that were going through my head. I will catch ya on the flip side

ps: You defently if you have never heard of him before need to check out Pusha T he is an incredible new rapper and very much reminds me of some of those old school talented as hell rappers

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  1. Hey, glad you found you a woman so to speak. At least someone you like and that seems to like you back. You gotta hook a brotha up with some details. I know you have been through the ringer in the dating department so it makes sense that you are a little catious about things, I would be too, but I enjoy reading your posts on your blogs and hearing how things are going for you for sure!

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