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Sometimes you have to clear you're head

Readers,

Hey everyone I hope all is going great. I can't believe today is Friday it feels like this week zipped by like that. Something that will be nice is a return to the little tradition of meeting with my best friend John who doesn't go to Boise State but works at the radio station we'll be meeting at the BRC ie a food place in the sub here so that will be nice to shoot the shit with him around 10:30ish. At noon I am taking a math quiz which I am actually feeling incredibly good about and really truly feeling like I am getting this math stuff were working on even if it takes me longer to work it out. On the other hand I am glad my friend Jessica is going to Boise State because the little break eating lunch with her or shooting the shit is really nice she helps me from meandering to a potential dark place.

Life is an interesting thing it has a way of making things happen that you never thought would. All in all I wish my car situation was different because their is this cute twenty year old girl (has several kids) but for once in my life I am like okay this could work. Hell we spoke not too long ago and she seems hell bent on sticking by me even though we have barely spoken. Though I feel like I am slightly lost on my end because the part of me thinks hey this sounds great but the other part of me is still feeling fresh from what occurred between Jolene and I and I know that I need to find myself before I dedicate myself to anyone which feels fucking selfish as hell! But there it is written for all the world to read and honestly thrown out there. There are a few different interesting women in my life right now who all in some way have my attention and I am at a cross roads of trying to figure out what I want right now?

Without a single doubt I want to settle down and get married, yes without a single down I want a solid job, yes without a single doubt I would like the photography to take off like it is (though it has kind of come to a stand still due to how time consuming school is). But its crazy its like people are legitimately saying, "Hey Chris he can do you're photographs. He is talented" recognizing me like I am a portrait person and can make somebody pop. Something else about photography that i've realized yes I may take pictures of someone that is stunning but all in all my object is to capture that person in the perfect light not to create a mini porn. So when I get people that make crude comments on photographs that I take I seriously run a hand through my head and go, "What the fuck?"

Yes Christina is a beautiful woman but she is more then just the looks. It just feels like the times have changed and not really for the better either. These days people are all about that short little sexual fix rather then the long term; nobody says hey i wonder what is going on up here they are like wow she is stacked let's do it like rabbits lol Wow this is going in places i'd have never imagined it going but oh well these are clearly thoughts that have been running through my mind

Forgive these traveling thoughts sometimes I still think maybe I ought to write up a little outline before writing these but then i figure this wouldn't really do me any good or you for that matter. This started out as a way to clear my head and its going to stay that way. To shift to something more serious the new Stone Sour album is amazing you should check it out, also, you should check out ZZ Ward she is incredibly talented, and lastly the new Big & Rich is solid too

Well that is my life currently I am going to wrap this up and get back to work on math. I'll catch ya on the flip side

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