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Wanders on

Readers,

Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. An update on things has seemed to be harder to write then usual; just sort of feels right now like I am spinning my wheels and getting nowhere fast. I think that is what a huge part of accepting what happened and moving forward in anyway you possible is truly all about. Over these past several months i've been battling mentally with what finally occurred. No matter how I look at it things with Jolene were a shitty situation and I am just grateful she showed her true colors at the end or I might have been with her for the rest of my life and that would not have been good.

Right now I am trying to slowly get back out there and date other people. I realize Jolene was Jolene and nobody is her and from what everybody has said what she did was beyond messed up and any normal person will not pull that. So I am just slowly easing myself out there and picking up with the dating end of things *shrugs* who knows what will come from things? I am not truly expecting anything to come rushing forward at this point. On top of that I know I am not truly ready for anything serious after the battle I went through and i'd hope that whoever I do end up maybe possibly dating can understand that and be cool with it. But of course as I said I am not going to rush head over heels into anything no sirree not again at least for a while now.

On the photography side of things its picking up as I have spoken about I have actual jobs coming up which is exciting and people that recognize me as relevant to the photography world. Though of course I am not the great Ansel Adams but i've been told I have an eye for photography. This week I am supposed to be doing the second half of the photo shoot with Joann Smith which should be exciting. To top that off I am taking pictures for one of my bosses at Gordman's of her and her boyfriend and they are paying me so that should be a lot of fun. Plus I am going to be moving officially into the realm of high school senior portraits. So all in all Mind's Eye Photography is alive and growing; feel like its my infant and I am raising it properly and teaching it how to do this and do that. Like a proud father of sorts not that a business can really be a child but you get the idea though.

School wise its keeping me incredibly busy in between math and statistics. This semester i've more or less accepted that both are hellish for me and require me a lot more time and just well may not be my specialties no matter how hard I work on them. A grade of a B or an C is what i've accepted I am getting for both and I am okay with this fact. In the end i'll just know I earned them by working my ass off for them that will be enough to put a little smile on my face. After that four more classes and I will graduate with a ba in hr and a ba in business administration.

Life has an interesting way of shaking you awake. We shall see what comes from a more recent development it may simply be nothing if its nothing oh well i've gained an even better friend. If more comes from things then that is great as well. Never been so damn sure about something in my life or somebody. But I want to let it play out more before I put it here in writing. No sense in being open and honest about something that may play out into nothingness that way its not so tough maybe

Some new albums that have come out that you should check out is the new Green Day, Three Days Grace and the latest Papa Roach. Everyone of their new albums are incredible. Defently should check them out for sure you will not be dissapointed in the least bit. I am stoked as hell in November the new bond movie comes out which should be bad ass.

Well for now I am off here is a bit of an update on things. Its back to killing math. Also hope whatever was going on this morning with being sick is gone that would rock because i cannot afford to be sick right now. I'll catch ya on the flip side


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