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Taking a step out of the proverbial game

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Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. Over the past week or so I have been sorting things out before settling down to write a new addition to things and also since having a conversation with a good friend of mine whose name I will not name as other than Scooby because he probably won't want me to mention him by name here, "Chris you have to start doing things for yourself and nobody else" and also with regard to the up in the air Jolene situation, "You have to go all the way and not do it part of the way either" so that is what I am doing for one thing I am stepping out of the world of serious romance for a bit now but at the same time I am not closing myself entirely off just in case someone does come along that really does peak my interest. As far as the whole going all the way with the cutting ties to Jolene its official that part of things will be easy.

She says she just wanted to find herself but everyone else whom I have bounced things off of has more or less called that a cop out so i'll take that to be the final verdict here. I've been through my fair share of bullshit with regard to past relationships. Apparently halfway through summer school in fact she realized she wanted a break from me but didn't want to hurt me by saying as much. Mind you not that it mattered I still crashed and burned with regards to math so she could have just told me so I could have started moving on mentally instead of being in this endless fog which seems to hang over me. I am done being a fish on a line that is why I am cutting her out of my life entirely. I've learned from this I want a woman who has a great head on her shoulders and is going places in that regard props to her she has that entirely other than that I felt like something for her to use to get over her past and move on so that is what I am doing moving on and not looking back.

As far as I am concerned now is time to claim a clean slate entirely. Other than on here as far as I am concerned those last five months did not mean a thing because clearly they did not mean a thing to her else she wouldn't be able to just move on so easily. I've already deleted every single picture of us from my phone and my next step is to clear my computer of all the photographs and lastly my  facebook as well. Five months together as far as I am concerned I have been busy hanging out with friends not dating a single soul. So here is to living life, kicking ass and taking names from this point forward.

Since being done with summer school i've been working a lot at Gordman's and I really love working there it is a fun place to work just wish I was getting more hours. With school coming up and with me taking Business Statistics and Math the partial hours will be good. I've decided my first priority needs to be school and some extra cash will be good as well. I mean I have a year and a half left until I graduate so I want to knock school out of the water and see what happens beyond that with the career world. I'd be actually really nice if once I graduate I can find a spot at Gordman's that works well because I love working there a lot and overall it seems like a great company to work for.

This next week should be interesting pretty sure I am going to see Weird Al, than Chris Young and maybe the Styx we'll see how it goes. Oh an amazing new album that you should check out is the latest Yellowcard Southern Air. Well for now I am off i'll catch ya on the flip side

ps: Before I forget my friend Jordan recently loaned me Fringe and I am hooked on it and also i watched the most recent episode of Breaking Bad and that show keeps getting better


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