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"How do you know when you love somebody?"

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Hey everyone I hope alls going great in you're worlds. In mind life is a constant battle to stay a float and feel like I have a full grasp on everything in front of me but one thing I know without a single doubt is that I have found the one that I love more than I have ever loved anyone else in my life. If someone asks you how do you know you truly love somebody? (ten reasons you can give them for clearly why. Hell I am not an expert but I'd bet a solid paycheck on this though):

1) You may flirt with someone else that is perfectly natural but you don't go any further than that ever because that special somebody is on your mind 
2) When you see two other people together you feel lonesome because they are not beside you their hand in yours and your lips pressed against theirs 
3) The idea of going clothes shopping usually would be painful but now you don't mind because you are doing it with them (or something else that person likes to do) \
4) When away from that person you feel an ache inside and not like you bruised your arm or burned yourself but an inner ache like something is missing 
5) After spending time with them and having to say good bye even if it was a short period of time you miss them 
6) $ isn't an issue anymore you truly don't mind if you are going to have to forgo something you truly enjoy next time like (coffee) 
7) That person's photograph graces your computer screen and or your phone (of course this is more obvious) 
8) A song or movie you usually wouldn't watch you will play when they are gone because it reminds you of them 
9) You can talk to that person about everything under the sun and they don't judge you or anything like that they are a true support system 
10) When you are down in the dumps or having a shitty day or just a regular old day getting a little text message or seeing it is her calling can make you smile for the rest of the day 


I have no doubt you could probably add more to this list I created above but these are truly the ones that came to mind as I poured through my mind and scratched some and added others and came up with ten and it was harder than I thought it would be. Psh yes at the end of the day as many of you know I am through and through a hopeless romantic so deal with it.


School's tough but going good overall I am done in about ten days which is nuts so I am going to really hit the books hit the books and study until I can't study anymore. Here is to hoping I truly own the class its got me worried of course though because its Calculus and in ways I feel like while I have learned things I haven't learned a thing *shrugs* Oh well I can conquer it and move forward with things


I work this Friday and I work on Saturday which I am looking forward to going to work. But short of that i will be hitting the books and studying my ass off. Take it easy I am outta here for now. I'll catch ya on the flip side


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