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Don't know why

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Hey everyone I hope all's going great in you're world's. Today I got quite a bit of math done but nothing significant though as I probably would have liked considering I have a test coming up this Thursday in math. Not sure what it is but I have been in a really off mood. Wish my bank account would refill itself and I had more hours under my belt if it was that way on days like these i'd randomly just take off for Idaho falls to see my girl who always knows just how to lift me up out of a funk.

I think I am just frustrated is all with the fact of if I do not knock out the assignment assigned yesterday that gets counted against me big time ultimately in the grades. Points in this class are few and far between so I have to get them where I can grab them else they slip between my fingertips and they are gone just like that! Just don't know I do know this I need to stick it out and kick ass and take fucking names can't let this class defeat me

Just some clearing of my thoughts. Hope all is well. I'll catch ya on the flip side

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