Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great. I can't believe today is Friday it feels like this week zipped by like that. Something that will be nice is a return to the little tradition of meeting with my best friend John who doesn't go to Boise State but works at the radio station we'll be meeting at the BRC ie a food place in the sub here so that will be nice to shoot the shit with him around 10:30ish. At noon I am taking a math quiz which I am actually feeling incredibly good about and really truly feeling like I am getting this math stuff were working on even if it takes me longer to work it out. On the other hand I am glad my friend Jessica is going to Boise State because the little break eating lunch with her or shooting the shit is really nice she helps me from meandering to a potential dark place. Life is an interesting thing it has a way of making things happen that you never thought would. All in all I wish my car situation was different because their is t...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. On my end I am incredibly busy with school and also feeling the wave of loneliness as it starts to get colder. It feels weird after a while of sharing the same bed with somebody else now not sharing it with a single person. Not sure exactly what it even is that has brought these thoughts on but I am now listening to the album "War Stories" by the band Unkle which is the same thing that kept me going when my dad was in the hospital battling with colon cancer. Hell I should be working away on calculus right now and that or killing statistics in the stats lab over in the new goddamn business building but can't bring myself to focus on either right now. Instead just randomly blah today. I slept like shit last night woke up once at midnight and than another time at three o'lock and don't think I got to bed until like three thirty. How's it possible to be burnt out before you even get bac...

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. An update on things has seemed to be harder to write then usual; just sort of feels right now like I am spinning my wheels and getting nowhere fast. I think that is what a huge part of accepting what happened and moving forward in anyway you possible is truly all about. Over these past several months i've been battling mentally with what finally occurred. No matter how I look at it things with Jolene were a shitty situation and I am just grateful she showed her true colors at the end or I might have been with her for the rest of my life and that would not have been good. Right now I am trying to slowly get back out there and date other people. I realize Jolene was Jolene and nobody is her and from what everybody has said what she did was beyond messed up and any normal person will not pull that. So I am just slowly easing myself out there and picking up with the dating end of things *shrugs* who knows wh...

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world. I just realized how long it has been since I have written one of these. No, I wasn't abducted by aliens just been very busy with work and school. At noon today I have my second math quiz here is to hoping I own it that would rock. Also here in a few hours I am going to be the proud owner of Light Room Four which originally is about eight hundred outside and seventy five at campus. I am getting it for free from my friend whose husband has an extra copy. A random little video of its features: A random little overview of its features needless to say it is an incredibly sick photography editing program and at least in my opinion as a photographer and minor editor it makes editing photographs a thousand times easier. I am also working on losing more of myself into. The photography side of things is gradually taking off but in ways I realize I also have a lot to learn in the realm of photography. I am...

Readers, Hey everyone I hope alls going great in you're worlds. A week or so ago I wrote a previous entry about the ex coming out of the wood work and swearing up and down she was pregnant with my child or "could be" and that if I cared i'd reconcile things with her. Fat chance after what we had been through I didn't have any reconciling in my heart though I did do a lot of mental battling. A lot of what is best for me and I also battled it out with her. She stuck to her guns swearing she was pregnant and I'd better step up to the plate if its "mine". I knew something was rotten too begin with as I made it clear with what I wrote strongly a few weeks ago. I suspected Jolene was lying through her teeth just how she suddenly texted me about it instead of phoning me. So grateful for my best friend Randy Hopkins who was there for me when the going got tough. When I started to seriously question whether she was lying or telling the truth. For keeping ...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's going great in you're world's. This past weekend the girl that never existed tried to slip back into my life by texting me saying she was pregnant and wanted to be for sure if it was her current guy's or her and i's. Bare in mind she stuck in the middle of it that she hoped it wasn't mine. I swear some people are like cats or dogs you push them off of you and they keep hopping up on you hoping you will pet them or give them attention never mind you are busy trying to get shit done. My cat Snowball is awesome i'll drop the world and give her food, pet her till her fur rubs off her body and jut all around she is a great cat but the one person I will not pay any mind to is the one who never existed for five months. This is the same chick who not a day after we are done shacks up with her random coworker and does the dirty without a condom and than expects me to somehow feel bad for her? Or expects me to run out there and g...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's going great in you're worlds. On my end I am sitting here listening to the band Aranda whom I saw a few days ago   when they opened up for the bands Saving Abel and Dead Sara. They did their song Satisfied in concert and not many days before that I told her when she suddenly texted me I wanted nothing to do with her at all and that night when they played the song it hit me and set all my brains sensors going off like spidey senses! It hit me that I didn't want to just not be friends ever again. I didn't just create in its place a story of being off on a photography adventure but that I loathed the ground she walked on. Here is the song I am talking about for you're listening pleasure: For those of you whom are in similar situations or who are you're wits end whether its with a guy or a girl it should hit you in the same way. If it doesn't oh well and I am not dogging love believe it or not I am 100 % a hopeless rom...