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"Don't count me out I just might surprise you when I swing back again"

Readers,

Hey everyone I hope alls going great in you're worlds. A week or so ago I wrote a previous entry about the ex coming out of the wood work and swearing up and down she was pregnant with my child or "could be" and that if I cared i'd reconcile things with her. Fat chance after what we had been through I didn't have any reconciling in my heart though I did do a lot of mental battling. A lot of what is best for me and I also battled it out with her. She stuck to her guns swearing she was pregnant and I'd better step up to the plate if its "mine".

I knew something was rotten too begin with as I made it clear with what I wrote strongly a few weeks ago. I suspected Jolene was lying through her teeth just how she suddenly texted me about it instead of phoning me. So grateful for my best friend Randy Hopkins who was there for me when the going got tough. When I started to seriously question whether she was lying or telling the truth. For keeping me on the right track and helping me to see through the smokes and mirrors she was putting up. Also another huge thanks goes to my friend Jessica Stephenson who from the very very beginning saw her for what she was and that is a very fake little harlot.

Like a gambler she kept up the little ruse texting me out of the blue yesterday saying, "Hey its okay I will just keep the baby and you can pay child support". I responded by tugging her around in circles like I had done before with the solid understanding that mentally she was lying the whole time and told her I thought as much. She thought she was real crafty said she was at the doctor's office right than and did I want to see the report? Instead of being sarcastic I said sure and finally about thirty minutes later the conniving little Harlot came back responding with, "Good Riddens it is officially Michael's we did an ultra sound"

Its over now I can truly truly move on. Nevertheless I feel like I mentally went through a war of the world's. It amazes me and believe me it shouldn't that someone you swore you loved and vice versa how they could do something so crazy? After this I won't be too terribly surprised by a damn thing that is for sure. In the end I am the better person and I think this Josh Turner song describes things perfectly:


When all this shit is said and done with its amazing usually i'd be all over going after her. But in the end I don't have it in me. She's a lying little harlot and i've exposed that to those that read this and to those who do and for those that don't oh well. At the end of the day I write this to clear my head and sort things out as I am doing now. You know I feel like I went through an epic mental hell and came out alive that is enough for me 

Mmm i'll get past this as I have and am past her. In the words of a friend of mine, "You will always be a hopeless romantic" and that is true that is something nobody will ever take away from me. Right now I am enjoying life and right now in my life there are a few interesting girls I have met and am not against getting out there and dating that sounds good to me

As far as school goes both statistics and math are going to be difficult but I can own these both without a doubt. I am looking forward to Uproar Fest this next week it should be a hell of a lot of fun for sure going with my best friend Randy and will be running into my friend Jackie which I am looking forward to. For  now I am off time to own some school work. Hope life is going great and always remember if you think you feel like you are going through something alone that's far from the truth there are many out there who have gone through the same thing or who are currently going through the same thing. 

Catch ya on the flip side 

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