Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world. I just realized how long it has been since I have written one of these. No, I wasn't abducted by aliens just been very busy with work and school. At noon today I have my second math quiz here is to hoping I own it that would rock. Also here in a few hours I am going to be the proud owner of Light Room Four which originally is about eight hundred outside and seventy five at campus. I am getting it for free from my friend whose husband has an extra copy. A random little video of its features: A random little overview of its features needless to say it is an incredibly sick photography editing program and at least in my opinion as a photographer and minor editor it makes editing photographs a thousand times easier. I am also working on losing more of myself into. The photography side of things is gradually taking off but in ways I realize I also have a lot to learn in the realm of photography. I am...

Readers, Hey everyone I hope alls going great in you're worlds. A week or so ago I wrote a previous entry about the ex coming out of the wood work and swearing up and down she was pregnant with my child or "could be" and that if I cared i'd reconcile things with her. Fat chance after what we had been through I didn't have any reconciling in my heart though I did do a lot of mental battling. A lot of what is best for me and I also battled it out with her. She stuck to her guns swearing she was pregnant and I'd better step up to the plate if its "mine". I knew something was rotten too begin with as I made it clear with what I wrote strongly a few weeks ago. I suspected Jolene was lying through her teeth just how she suddenly texted me about it instead of phoning me. So grateful for my best friend Randy Hopkins who was there for me when the going got tough. When I started to seriously question whether she was lying or telling the truth. For keeping ...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's going great in you're world's. This past weekend the girl that never existed tried to slip back into my life by texting me saying she was pregnant and wanted to be for sure if it was her current guy's or her and i's. Bare in mind she stuck in the middle of it that she hoped it wasn't mine. I swear some people are like cats or dogs you push them off of you and they keep hopping up on you hoping you will pet them or give them attention never mind you are busy trying to get shit done. My cat Snowball is awesome i'll drop the world and give her food, pet her till her fur rubs off her body and jut all around she is a great cat but the one person I will not pay any mind to is the one who never existed for five months. This is the same chick who not a day after we are done shacks up with her random coworker and does the dirty without a condom and than expects me to somehow feel bad for her? Or expects me to run out there and g...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's going great in you're worlds. On my end I am sitting here listening to the band Aranda whom I saw a few days ago   when they opened up for the bands Saving Abel and Dead Sara. They did their song Satisfied in concert and not many days before that I told her when she suddenly texted me I wanted nothing to do with her at all and that night when they played the song it hit me and set all my brains sensors going off like spidey senses! It hit me that I didn't want to just not be friends ever again. I didn't just create in its place a story of being off on a photography adventure but that I loathed the ground she walked on. Here is the song I am talking about for you're listening pleasure: For those of you whom are in similar situations or who are you're wits end whether its with a guy or a girl it should hit you in the same way. If it doesn't oh well and I am not dogging love believe it or not I am 100 % a hopeless rom...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. Over the past week or so I have been sorting things out before settling down to write a new addition to things and also since having a conversation with a good friend of mine whose name I will not name as other than Scooby because he probably won't want me to mention him by name here, "Chris you have to start doing things for yourself and nobody else" and also with regard to the up in the air Jolene situation, "You have to go all the way and not do it part of the way either" so that is what I am doing for one thing I am stepping out of the world of serious romance for a bit now but at the same time I am not closing myself entirely off just in case someone does come along that really does peak my interest. As far as the whole going all the way with the cutting ties to Jolene its official that part of things will be easy. She says she just wanted to find herself but everyone else whom I...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. On my end with Jolene for once in my life after yesterday I feel like I am really moving forward now. Its funny how you are like yes I got this but part of your brain is still locked up in what could potentially be later down the road. We said a lot of hurtful things back and forth too one another initially but than I realized ultimately that while I want to be furious with her its not right she really and honestly truly is looking to find herself. She's a bad person despite what I may want to say but of course the whole being split up from her is still bitter sweet as ever though and always will be. There is no doubt that she will hold a special place in my heart. Yesterday exchanged things with Jolene and than we went out to lunch at Goodwood bbq one more time and sat in our usual spot in the restaurant. Overall it was very nice but you know with everything being still fresh I wasn't in the greates...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. Its funny for a while there certain forces told me to be less honest and put less out here when in fact what helped me is being honest as possible and putting everything out there when writing these whether it put me in a bad light or not. On some level this helps me find myself and discover all the crazy thoughts running through my brain and sorting out the bullshit and finding the truth. Discovering the needle at the bottom of the huge haystack. That needle is that I am okay person; I may not be perfect but nobody ever is really perfect; a lot of people pretend to be but they are not. There are real people and there are fake people; everyone lies that's a given truth just some less than others and if you are really good about you accept the fact that lying doesn't help anything. These past few days cooping with the breakup when people have asked me how I was doing I said okay that it just takes a d...