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Train To My Thoughts

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Hey everyone I hope all's well in you're world's. On my end life is good! In fact really good this past weekend I got the chance to hang out with my best friend Jordan and his girlfriend Kelsey, our mutual friends Shae and Mark and another couple whose names slip my mind right now but nevertheless it was a nice break from the madness of school which as I think I wrote about last time I was starting to feel cooped up like a cat who loves to hunt birds but has been stuck inside because the owners are a way and the neighborhood boy who watches the cat is too scared that the cat may run away so they don't let him out free to conquer the world around him.

Also this past week I took my second math exam and discovered the results of a 52 % which of course crushed me like nothing else could. Hell I have realized that I truly do hate feeling like I have failed so strongly nevertheless not all is lost! In fact not even close as at first when I found out my grade yesterday it literally felt like someone jerked a carpet I was standing on out from under my damn feet just for shits and giggles. With the way I have been doing on my homework and the projects in class if I just do the one homework assignment I missed i'll be back in for a double replacement at the end of the semester. Ultimately in reality I have also realized that I seriously have come a long day with the math because years ago i'd have never been able to do most of that math work but a lot of it I did correctly and if I had just shown more work I could have gotten a D even. All in all I just even if I get a C on the next two tests I can more than pass the class and if I do even better I am doing even better in the class.

At 3:30 today I am taking my second business statistics exam which yes I am worried about though I have been seriously working a lot of the material so I obviously have a much better grasp on it I just have to stop second guessing myself. Slow the hell down and think okay I know this now how do I go about tackling this. Which after writing this i'll get back to tackling more of the business statistics while I eat left over taco's from red robin where I went out to eat with my family this past Sunday.

Ohhh and can't wait apparently my best friend Jared and his wife are supposed to be coming here in later March which is going to be great. Jared is one of those people who I consider a true friend essentially him and I have been through a lot together when we were younger and it will be nice to be able to spend even more time with him and hang out and his wife Mary is pretty awesome too defently consider them both to be like family.

Mmm in the updated realm of internships I have nothing to seriously update everyone on unfourtantly I am in the pool for an interview for that management trainee program with Target and I am also in the running for Sherman Williams so we'll see how those go and over spring break here which is on the 26th I am meeting with that woman from Whole Insurance which I may go with or I may not go with depending upon if we can agree to paying me some cash as well as the commission because let's face it I have never done hard sales

Hope you enjoyed your trip please have the conductor punch you're ticket and remember it is good for any other time you want. I'll catch ya on the flip side

ps: Can't wait until Spring Break I look forward to spending time with Jolene!!!!

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