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I am a fisherman maybe if I stick my line out there i'll catch something

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Hey everybody I hope all is well in your world's. As the days get shorter and my birthday comes upon me I am wanting more than anything once again to find that special somebody to share everything with. Its funny I think i'd ask for that special present like that last Christmas poem I wrote last year but god only knows what that god me. It got me Trisha and a ton of other pain and agony and a ton of depression which shut my world down. Literally brought it all to a screeching halt.

I find myself at a crossroads though of sorts. The Crossroads that says I am ready to risk it again. I am ready to truly get back out there again and find it. Though through all I have been through my self esteem hangs in the balance. Daily i'd say even it feels like I look at myself in the mirror and I wonder what do you see in me? What does anyone see in me? But gradually I am slipping past that and know eventually good things come to those who wait. My struggles currently will be small I mean think about it I am so close to graduating right now from Boise State have a few more classes and than I will have two bachelor degrees.

Can't believe it I made it past all that muckity muck and I am turning 27 years old coming up here on November 28th. It seems only fitting to share all the things I am greatful for. I am greatful for the wonderful family I have really couldn't ask for a better one. I am greatful for all my wonderful friends whom find a way to center me and bring me back to planet earth and tolerate me when I am being an insuferable ass. I am greatful to be alive and welcome easy day with open arms. I am greatful for my innate ability to spin a scene with words that slip from my lips and spill onto paper. I am greatful for the eye I have towards photography. I am greatful for homemade pumpkin pie. I am greatful for the love that finds some people and links them together forever.

No matter the things I have been through deep down I hope to truly meet somebody wonderful. For now i'll settle with several wonderful friends including several incredible women who center me like nobody else can espessically when I am feeling down on myself. Coming up here I have two photo jobs which is exciting to put it lightly. When I started taking pictures if you had seriously asked me if I ever thought i'd get paid i'd have toldcha you are mad. Stark raving mad in fact. Once I take those I will put them up on here so everyone can breeze through them.

Just got home from seeing the new Harold and Kumar movie and it was hilarious and incredibly good also to top that it was also very good in 3d to boot. If you liked the others at all you will really really like this one a lot. They outdid themselves and really got you in the spirit of Christmas. Mmm can't believe it its getting colder now and before long christmas will be upon us.

Mmm well I am going to cut this off here. I'll catch ya on the flip side  

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