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"Anybody Listening"

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Hey everybody I hope all is well in your world's. On my end just hitting the books and studying away have another commercial law test this coming next week (hope I actually do well this time) and I am also conducting my interview with Phil Broadbent with legal at Scentsy and lastly school wise conducting my interview with my professor for Interviewing class this will be a probing interview.

As a whole mentally this video suits my mood perfectly because I am confused maybe even more so than usual. For the first time I am going to talk about a certain somebody name will not be mentioned. That person vanished from my life suddenly after we used to hang out all the time etc. We nevertheless had a ton of fun and and at the time and than due to a tiny thing that I did she went poof from my life. Well today she popped back into it came in the door of that Math Learning Center and poked me in the side and i'll be damned if I didn't probably proceed to smile like a fucking idiot and than continue to flirt with her while we each worked away on math and shared my food with her as well. Than bam just like that as soon as she entered she was gone without saying good bye or anything.

What the fuck do I do? I am thinking of just letting her alone and if she is seriously interested letting her pursue me because I am done feeling like I am the one whom isn't being heard etc done feeling like nobody is listening. Done feeling like nothing more than an goddamn revolving door!

The Queensryche tune perfectly applies to how I feel right now give it a listen:

In other news I am going out to get pizza with this interesting girl named Emily we shall see she is fun too talk to but I am not quite sure about her *shrugs* Just don't know overall if you have a way to read minds that would be awesome i'd applaud you. Hell in fact i'd probably give my right hand if I could read minds i think it would without a doubt make my life a lot easier.

Until than i'll continue to kick the shit out of school. Furthermore I am going to end this here i will catch ya on the flip side


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