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"Going Off The Grid"

Readers,

Hey everyone I hope all is going great on your end. On my end, I've been busy somewhat enjoying this summer spending a hell of a lot of time with my girlfriend Ruth, went and saw the band One Republic with my friend Jordan, went to music fest (which turned out awesome aside from sky blue and the fact that they cranked up the bass too much), went to Mayhem Fest a couple of days ago with Ruth and that was awesome! Suffice to say I got to see the band Mushroomhead in concert, Korn, Ice T and body count (which is an awesome kinda metal rock band, check them out), Avenged Sevenfold and the Texas Hippie Coalition.

This summer hasn't been the most exciting summer though because I've had this math class sort of hanging around my neck like a noose of sorts. Its painful because I am so damned close I can feel myself succeeding but there is still that part of me that also sees failure at the end of the tunnel. Its hard as hell not keeping that breathing monster at bay...feels like he is constantly just waiting to scream at me, "You fucking suck at math! You will always just work retail and nothing more! Ha, the only place in HR you'll make it is a warm seat when they fire your pathetic ass!". I see that thing on facebook that says its essential to find someone that has demons as well as yours and their demons play with your demons and all is well. Essentially, all those bad thoughts all those feelings of not succeeding are cancelled out because of how loving and supportive they're. Obviously I talked a lot about Ruth and how elemental she was in helping me to get through my finals and my ultimate success (ie. helping keep me focused on what I need to do). She's never stopped being that central person that person whom I can really lean on and vice versa. She continues to amaze me and continues to give me butterflies! In just a few days, it'll be four months for us and beyond the skies the limit. To quote the great Buzz Lightyear, "To infinite and beyond". Because that's how I feel about our love its something that continues to literally grow day in and day out

Recently purchased a pair of tickets for the band Theory Of A Deadman, they will be playing at the Knitting Factory on September 10th. I am stoked as hell for that concert. Its one of those bands that I have always wanted to see live. Here is a video for one of their many songs, its called Santa Monica (thank you Ruth for getting tickets for the show). Literally this is one of those top favorite bands of mine that I have loved since I got their second album from my cousin Josh for a birthday when I was way younger.

I titled this blog going off the grid because right now I am up to the wire with my math. I literally have a few weeks and that's it! Its pass this math class or good bye to college until when I can afford to go back and pay entirely out of pocket for my schooling *shrugs* Don't know when that would actually be...so damned close I can feel it! So, I will be treating this like I did finals week. No watching movies, no reading books, no going out on the town, no real texting or talking on the phone (except in a major emergency or just to debrief or calm the fuck down).

Well with that I am hitting the books and also getting ready for work. I work today at 10:45 till 2:30pm, after that I am coming home and probably starting the hitting the books thing. Here is to hoping I can come out on top. So please keep me in your prayers, thoughts etc. I'll catch ya on the flip side  

ps: It was great to run into my John and his girlfriend downtown eagle for a bit last night and catch up. Definitely some friends no matter how long its been are friends for life...no matter the time away you pick up where you left off like nothing ever happened




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