Readers,
Hey everyone I hope you're doing good. On my end, its getting closer and closer to not being able to get a class I need and secondly running out of time to realistically go test out of this damned business calculus class! As I have written previously, I have taken this class more then six times at this point. I tried it at CWI several different times even and still was not successful. A deal was brokered, I'd do it on Khan Academy and go test out of it (essentially only because I had taken it so many times and clearly something wasn't working). My father encouraged me to pick it up and work my ass off on the math like he normally does, putting a boot in my ass...saying you got this...plus my girlfriend Ruth as always has been incredibly supportive. I had people offer to tutor me and help me out...but at the end of the day I was determined to go it alone. I have never considered myself prideful, but in this instance I clearly was. In this instance with math, I said to myself, "Chris, you have done this class a ton of times! Fuck getting tutoring you will do this alone...you will spend a ton of time on it and you will get it done...you will go test out of this class and move on with your college career"
Literally there are maybe thirty two plus assignments left in the calculus section on Khan Academy but from the times I did take the class those sections didn't click. Essentially I've been trying to teach myself. The blind leading the blind. I hate the fact that I let pride get in the way of my getting help with this math class and getting it done. Literally I broke down probably over a week ago because I realized I was just hitting rock bottom with this math class and like in the past Ruth was there to tell me, "Baby its all right I love you and will be here no matter what happens". I know I write a lot about her throughout this but she really has been a solid rock when I haven't been able to. Not once has she ever felt smothered either. Literally still today almost five months later I feel like a kid and still get butterflies around her. At the end of the day, I don't know what I am going to do really? Ultimately, I know I need tutoring in this calculus class. Ultimately I could probably reach out to a lot of friends for that. Ultimately I have the option of going and working over at CWI on this math. At this point, I think I need to break down and just pay someone for one on one tutoring or maybe an exchange like family photographs *shrugs* Essentially, as many of you know this class is what I need to finally nail the proverbial nail in the coffin and graduate with my two bachelor degrees from Boise State (hopefully)
Took a moment from writing this blog to talk to my girlfriend Ruth. At this point, there is no way I am going to successfully get this class done on my own. Therego I won't be going to Boise State this next summer. Instead I am going to focus on getting a personal tutor because I really do need the 1 on 1 attention for this class. Feeling calmer and more in control just wishing I had this class done. Feeling great because of how incredibly supportive and loving Ruth is
It'll take a lot of work but I am determined not to give up on this math class. I am determined to get it knocked out. I am determined to go take the test over at CWI and go on to pass the rest of my classes at Boise State *smiles* So, this following year it will be getting together with a tutor and going through this calculus and getting it knocked out. Mm other than that I'll be enjoying myself some, ie. going to see the band Theory Of A Deadman in concert and celebrating my 30th birthday
Well back to real life. Love having this as a way to really clear my head. Thank you all of you for reading this even if sometimes its simply clearing my head. I appreciate it! Recently learned that a friend follows my blog and reads what is going on which I am incredibly thankful for. You know this started out for me and became more then that. The more trailers I see for the turtles movie the more excited I am to go see it in theaters! I'll catch ya on the flip side
Hey everyone I hope you're doing good. On my end, its getting closer and closer to not being able to get a class I need and secondly running out of time to realistically go test out of this damned business calculus class! As I have written previously, I have taken this class more then six times at this point. I tried it at CWI several different times even and still was not successful. A deal was brokered, I'd do it on Khan Academy and go test out of it (essentially only because I had taken it so many times and clearly something wasn't working). My father encouraged me to pick it up and work my ass off on the math like he normally does, putting a boot in my ass...saying you got this...plus my girlfriend Ruth as always has been incredibly supportive. I had people offer to tutor me and help me out...but at the end of the day I was determined to go it alone. I have never considered myself prideful, but in this instance I clearly was. In this instance with math, I said to myself, "Chris, you have done this class a ton of times! Fuck getting tutoring you will do this alone...you will spend a ton of time on it and you will get it done...you will go test out of this class and move on with your college career"
Literally there are maybe thirty two plus assignments left in the calculus section on Khan Academy but from the times I did take the class those sections didn't click. Essentially I've been trying to teach myself. The blind leading the blind. I hate the fact that I let pride get in the way of my getting help with this math class and getting it done. Literally I broke down probably over a week ago because I realized I was just hitting rock bottom with this math class and like in the past Ruth was there to tell me, "Baby its all right I love you and will be here no matter what happens". I know I write a lot about her throughout this but she really has been a solid rock when I haven't been able to. Not once has she ever felt smothered either. Literally still today almost five months later I feel like a kid and still get butterflies around her. At the end of the day, I don't know what I am going to do really? Ultimately, I know I need tutoring in this calculus class. Ultimately I could probably reach out to a lot of friends for that. Ultimately I have the option of going and working over at CWI on this math. At this point, I think I need to break down and just pay someone for one on one tutoring or maybe an exchange like family photographs *shrugs* Essentially, as many of you know this class is what I need to finally nail the proverbial nail in the coffin and graduate with my two bachelor degrees from Boise State (hopefully)
Took a moment from writing this blog to talk to my girlfriend Ruth. At this point, there is no way I am going to successfully get this class done on my own. Therego I won't be going to Boise State this next summer. Instead I am going to focus on getting a personal tutor because I really do need the 1 on 1 attention for this class. Feeling calmer and more in control just wishing I had this class done. Feeling great because of how incredibly supportive and loving Ruth is
It'll take a lot of work but I am determined not to give up on this math class. I am determined to get it knocked out. I am determined to go take the test over at CWI and go on to pass the rest of my classes at Boise State *smiles* So, this following year it will be getting together with a tutor and going through this calculus and getting it knocked out. Mm other than that I'll be enjoying myself some, ie. going to see the band Theory Of A Deadman in concert and celebrating my 30th birthday
Well back to real life. Love having this as a way to really clear my head. Thank you all of you for reading this even if sometimes its simply clearing my head. I appreciate it! Recently learned that a friend follows my blog and reads what is going on which I am incredibly thankful for. You know this started out for me and became more then that. The more trailers I see for the turtles movie the more excited I am to go see it in theaters! I'll catch ya on the flip side
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