Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Readers, Hey everybody I hope all's well in you're world. It seems this damn cold has been going around i've known many people who are on the cusp of one or are at the end of one and it finally got me this weekend. Its funny in that funny he he he kinda way as in not funny at all just an ironic kind of funny I swear I had it beat and went to sleep even posted an update about overcoming it and all's well on my facebook but alas I think I jinxed myself or something because it came back to play in the worst way possible. Several positives to announce considering I don't have excel on my new lap top i swear I was up a crick without a paddle and emailed my professor for Business Statistics; he took me at my word that I could complete a scatter plot and ended up giving me a solid 9/9 on my first big stats assignment which rocks! As I mentioned there is no doubt that Business Stat's is going to be one of those more difficult classes so starting off really solid lik...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's well in your world's. Just received a phone call saying that I won't be selected as a note taker for my political science class (apparently I was tardy in the past with notes) well I hope that is not a sign of the weekend to come; the note taking would have paid 70 bucks at the end of the semester which would have been very nice considering I am already taking notes as it is. Short of that i've been getting more and more adjusted to school and so far as I figured yes Business Statistics is a lot of work but so far I am hanging in there and even knocked out and got the homework turned in for this weekend which is awesome. So I guess there is something good coming out of things and secondly as far as math goes its kicking my ass and I am partially kicking its ass. In ways it feels like I understand Limits but in other ways it feels like I don't. My very first test in class is set for not this next Tuesday but the week after that ...

Readers: Hey everybody I hope all's well in your lives. Its been back to the daily grind of school so to speak. I understand several things now right off the bat: 1) Math is going to take a lot of work 2) Business Statistics is going to be difficult more than likely because I am bad at simple math 3) Swimming is going to be a great exercise class Those are my three random acknowledgments that and yes as Valentines Day rapidly approaches on the backs of hell hounds with large razor sharp teeth with the ability to breathe fucking fire I am going to be incredibly lonely its sort of an inevitability but I don't need somebody else to be happy though. Yes eventually i'd love to find somebody but for now take it easy maybe some casual dating and other stuff but absolutely NOTHING serious. As it is life's thrown a stick into the wheels of success potentially I have to appeal a hold on my financial aid because of a low cumulative GPA. Whew this is where I am trying not...

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's well in you're world's. Its the first day back to school for me. Genuinely its been a damn good day so far found out I officially passed all my classes last semester so its onto Business Statistics and math 160. Along with political science 101 which is just simply filling a spot and last time I took it at the beginning of my college career I got a D and I am taking Swimming which will help with my goal to get in better shape. Outside its real cold! Brr though of course its nowhere near as cold as it has been. Here at 2:40 its onto the joy of Math 160 which shouldn't be so bad because it helps I have an awesome teacher who was actually my tutor whom helped me get through my math 025 class and do well because she was tutoring me so that should help a ton. Earlier ran into my friend Brenda whom I am happy to say apparently she has herself a boyfriend which I am happy for her considering what she went through previously and she though...

Readers: Hey everybody I hope all's well in your world's. On my end yes over the last several of these i've been writing about a feeling of loneliness and the like. But you know what there is nothing wrong me with I need to accept that and move on which I am currently doing so. I don't think that many people can say they had two friend with benefits whom were both drop dead gorgeous and friend with benefits but more than that though both incredibly good friends too I am still in touch with both, I have an incredibly loving pair of parents who would go to hell and high water for me not everyone can say that today, and lastly I love myself. Yeah I know that last part sounds cheesy right? But its true and that is also most important more than anything is that you have to like yourself! Before anything else comes your way you have to accept whom you are and realize that your strengths more than out weigh your weaknesses but at the same time do not go off half cocked a...

Readers: Hey everybody I hope alls well in your world's. This will probably be the first of many apologizes delivered to those that read this blog if anyone reads it apparently I am not up to viewership in Russia even which is fairly cool I must admit. If you read back through this you'll find this is truly delving into everything about what's going inside my head. At first this just became a blog about random things in my life than it became about my battles with suicide and the after shock of surviving after taking the break up with Trisha very hard and how essentially it stopped everything in my life. With the out pouring of everything has come an odd sort of frankness. A kind of frankness only delivered to a close friend but I guess on here I found myself able to write whatever was going on because I thought it could help someone else, this was just a centralized audience, and lastly well I found blogging to be a source of healing. In the love department I am well...

Readers: Hey everybody I hope all is well in your world's. I am writing a latest update of things seeing as how earlier today I asked her why she suddenly blocked me with out any word at all. Hell its funny how in the end I told myself over and over again knowing wouldn't actually help but there you have it. One thing she said has continued to stay there at the fore front of my mind when she texted me back after essentially telling me that I worried too much, that I killed things that drunken night, that I am neurotic. Probably not exactly in those different words but that was the idea though than she stopped texting me again. Later out of the blue she texted me again telling me she was sorry but that how could she expect anything else out of things after the night when I screwed up like that. Oh and of course she also threw my words in my face saying essentially that i'd never be with a woman with a kid lol The funny he he ironic fucking thing is that I made it clear w...