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Reality Check Time

Readers,

Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're worlds. On my end this morning my father said to me, "You should apply for unemployment they are giving you very few hours", reality is that is the truth its been a whole week since I have worked a single day and before that its been sparing at best. The last day I worked was this past Saturday and that was because apparently someone called in and after that it was because someone I work with was working "too much". I love working at Gordmans but this whole only working at best one day a week is not cutting the cheese at all. Hell i've been with the company since they opened last week and it feels like I barely exist too them anymore! This is something I have choose to ignore because well school has had me in a noose but very soon I will be out of school for this semester and where does that leave me?

Oh sure I will now have more time to spare but really? I have been there since the beginning and other people have been getting a ton of hours but not I says the rabbit to the hare. Hell yes I know I should be grateful too have a job but this is getting too be bullshit though! Whenever I do work I work my ass off yes I do enjoy speaking with people but when I am there at work I put everything into the job with helping guests and everything else but still it seems to fall incredibly short of any obtainable goal that employs sanity

Right now I am trying too save up so I can get a new camera that is a big goal of mine but its difficult with getting no hours at all too do so. I never thought i'd be agreeing with my father but maybe its time to bite the bullet and apply...as I write this I kind of feel like a bum like I am suddenly going too be just feeding off the system. I won't let myself just become another person living off of it though I will look for another job and hope something seriously pans out with Gordmans because I really like working there that is what makes this whole thing mentally so difficult

Well back to studying my ass off. One week left and I take my finals one in Calculus and one in Business Statistics this next week I am determined to own them both. Forgive the minor grrness and ponderings that run through my mind. Catch ya on the flip side

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