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Hey everybody I hope alls well in your world's. This will probably be the first of many apologizes delivered to those that read this blog if anyone reads it apparently I am not up to viewership in Russia even which is fairly cool I must admit. If you read back through this you'll find this is truly delving into everything about what's going inside my head. At first this just became a blog about random things in my life than it became about my battles with suicide and the after shock of surviving after taking the break up with Trisha very hard and how essentially it stopped everything in my life.
With the out pouring of everything has come an odd sort of frankness. A kind of frankness only delivered to a close friend but I guess on here I found myself able to write whatever was going on because I thought it could help someone else, this was just a centralized audience, and lastly well I found blogging to be a source of healing.
In the love department I am well a tad bit burnt out so to speak with things. Honestly I just wish people were more up front and more honest that would be nicer. Today though it feels like a lot more people are just out there for some game playing. As of this past summer or so I got lost in the joy of two friend with benefits (i'd wander back to that only because its safer if that makes any sense). After my latest foree back into the dating world or attempted foree I am even more weary and even more cynical which I guess is a bad way to look at things but that is how it is in the moment. Though with that being said eventually in my life i'd love to meet someone special and settle down and get married and even have a family but of course I want to be graduated first before I start the family aspect of things.
On the graduation side, I am hopefully a year away from graduating though it is starting to feel like I am possibly just spinning my wheels considering i've been going to Boise State since 04'. My first two years in college where a hey I am here which I don't know I've been told isn't all that bad; on that though the roughest part is not having a job while going to school. But on that token i've come realize that if I had a job while going to school with myself being less mechanical more than likely school would suffer greatly and or vice versa work as well. We'll just have to see where it all plays out. I know in the end it will pay off i'll have a Bachelor degree in Human Resources and a Bachelor degree in Business Administration.
At the moment that is my life in a nutshell so to speak. Thanks for reading my blog and once again hope alls well. I'll catch ya on the flip side
ps: Wow I just surpassed 60 blogs and its refreshing to have more views considering my last one got 14 views in one day and others
Hey everybody I hope alls well in your world's. This will probably be the first of many apologizes delivered to those that read this blog if anyone reads it apparently I am not up to viewership in Russia even which is fairly cool I must admit. If you read back through this you'll find this is truly delving into everything about what's going inside my head. At first this just became a blog about random things in my life than it became about my battles with suicide and the after shock of surviving after taking the break up with Trisha very hard and how essentially it stopped everything in my life.
With the out pouring of everything has come an odd sort of frankness. A kind of frankness only delivered to a close friend but I guess on here I found myself able to write whatever was going on because I thought it could help someone else, this was just a centralized audience, and lastly well I found blogging to be a source of healing.
In the love department I am well a tad bit burnt out so to speak with things. Honestly I just wish people were more up front and more honest that would be nicer. Today though it feels like a lot more people are just out there for some game playing. As of this past summer or so I got lost in the joy of two friend with benefits (i'd wander back to that only because its safer if that makes any sense). After my latest foree back into the dating world or attempted foree I am even more weary and even more cynical which I guess is a bad way to look at things but that is how it is in the moment. Though with that being said eventually in my life i'd love to meet someone special and settle down and get married and even have a family but of course I want to be graduated first before I start the family aspect of things.
On the graduation side, I am hopefully a year away from graduating though it is starting to feel like I am possibly just spinning my wheels considering i've been going to Boise State since 04'. My first two years in college where a hey I am here which I don't know I've been told isn't all that bad; on that though the roughest part is not having a job while going to school. But on that token i've come realize that if I had a job while going to school with myself being less mechanical more than likely school would suffer greatly and or vice versa work as well. We'll just have to see where it all plays out. I know in the end it will pay off i'll have a Bachelor degree in Human Resources and a Bachelor degree in Business Administration.
At the moment that is my life in a nutshell so to speak. Thanks for reading my blog and once again hope alls well. I'll catch ya on the flip side
ps: Wow I just surpassed 60 blogs and its refreshing to have more views considering my last one got 14 views in one day and others
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