Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all's going great in you're worlds. On my end I am sitting here listening to the band Aranda whom I saw a few days ago   when they opened up for the bands Saving Abel and Dead Sara. They did their song Satisfied in concert and not many days before that I told her when she suddenly texted me I wanted nothing to do with her at all and that night when they played the song it hit me and set all my brains sensors going off like spidey senses! It hit me that I didn't want to just not be friends ever again. I didn't just create in its place a story of being off on a photography adventure but that I loathed the ground she walked on. Here is the song I am talking about for you're listening pleasure: For those of you whom are in similar situations or who are you're wits end whether its with a guy or a girl it should hit you in the same way. If it doesn't oh well and I am not dogging love believe it or not I am 100 % a hopeless rom

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. Over the past week or so I have been sorting things out before settling down to write a new addition to things and also since having a conversation with a good friend of mine whose name I will not name as other than Scooby because he probably won't want me to mention him by name here, "Chris you have to start doing things for yourself and nobody else" and also with regard to the up in the air Jolene situation, "You have to go all the way and not do it part of the way either" so that is what I am doing for one thing I am stepping out of the world of serious romance for a bit now but at the same time I am not closing myself entirely off just in case someone does come along that really does peak my interest. As far as the whole going all the way with the cutting ties to Jolene its official that part of things will be easy. She says she just wanted to find herself but everyone else whom I

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. On my end with Jolene for once in my life after yesterday I feel like I am really moving forward now. Its funny how you are like yes I got this but part of your brain is still locked up in what could potentially be later down the road. We said a lot of hurtful things back and forth too one another initially but than I realized ultimately that while I want to be furious with her its not right she really and honestly truly is looking to find herself. She's a bad person despite what I may want to say but of course the whole being split up from her is still bitter sweet as ever though and always will be. There is no doubt that she will hold a special place in my heart. Yesterday exchanged things with Jolene and than we went out to lunch at Goodwood bbq one more time and sat in our usual spot in the restaurant. Overall it was very nice but you know with everything being still fresh I wasn't in the greates

Readers: Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're world's. Its funny for a while there certain forces told me to be less honest and put less out here when in fact what helped me is being honest as possible and putting everything out there when writing these whether it put me in a bad light or not. On some level this helps me find myself and discover all the crazy thoughts running through my brain and sorting out the bullshit and finding the truth. Discovering the needle at the bottom of the huge haystack. That needle is that I am okay person; I may not be perfect but nobody ever is really perfect; a lot of people pretend to be but they are not. There are real people and there are fake people; everyone lies that's a given truth just some less than others and if you are really good about you accept the fact that lying doesn't help anything. These past few days cooping with the breakup when people have asked me how I was doing I said okay that it just takes a d

Readers; Hey everyone I hope all's going great in you're world's. Its now 12:17 in the morning just got home from Roaring Springs which I got in for free so that was fun but I found myself dwelling on what I didn't have; what had come to a close; that being the relationship with Jolene and I. Hell it was an even shorter relationship than the one with my last ex at this point I think I might be something of a plague. So many people are like you are awesome blah blah blah but of course what the fuck else are they going to say? Over these past weeks I learned I flunked my summer math class so that makes me feel overjoyed!  Hell at this point I am pretty sure I will get out of college when I am maybe thirty years old. At this point in my life I seriously am left wondering again what do I have to truly offer a woman seriously in a substantial sustaining relationship. I mean I still live with my parents while going to college. I have a part time job that somewhat pays the