Inside The Mind Of A Writer

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in your world's. On my end, I've been busy with school and working a lot more which is good considering previously I wasn't getting many hours at work. Kenny Rogers sums up things with that girl I mentioned previously. Like the previous woman this one showed interest and as you know we hit it off or seemed to. We shared a kiss and chatted for hours on end and she even said that she was interested in me. Ultimately after hearing nothing from her for a longer than normal period of time I have decided to fold them. Its funny I don't know what it is but this girl had my heart in my hands and maybe that was because she seriously seemed interested in me *shrugs* Either way I am not interested in claims of being busy etc...I don't have time in my life for that kind of shit. So, I hit the block button on facebook and sent her to the land of things that never were.  I read something a while back which said that despite ever

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in your world's. On my end, right now I am sitting here listening to the newest Katy Perry album which is really solid, she is incredibly talented. Since writing my previous post about my father's cancer and feeling helpless I have an update of sorts on things. So it looks like the cancer is 100 % treatable which is great and more than likely he will be going to the Mayo Clinic where they have apparently the best surgeon in the country for pancreatic and liver surgery (which are apparently incredibly specialized). So, he will be in great hands when he does go its looking like at the beginning of November or so. The shittiest part of the whole deal, is that while, he will be getting the best care possible, I cannot afford to take off and go to Minnesota to support my mom. So there is some good news in there somewhere at least This past weekend, I went downtown Boise with my ex Trisha whom I previously talked about in past entri

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in your world's. Last night I found out that at my dad's latest doctors visit they apparently found a spot of cancer on his liver. Apparently the success is 100 % but at the same time as much as its operable that little fucking bastard can also go elsewhere as well because its so tiny. One of the hardest things in my life I have gone through is being at the hospital and seeing my dad there unable to take care of himself. Because I don't give a shit how old he is he's always been that tough person no matter what has happened to anyone of us in the past! Getting my head shaved for fucking cancer this past year now feels pathetic because it doesn't make what my father has go away...I can't just take it away. I am grateful and surprised that the place I found comfort last night was in role-playing with an ex girlfriend slash really good friend Trisha. Yes, many of you know what I went through in the past but nevert

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're worlds. On my end, a while ago I wrote a blog entry about how I was going to start managing what I ate more, working out more regularly and yet I still find myself bottoming out at 165 lbs. I'd say its a daily battle for myself to choose eating healthy over grabbing like some orange chicken from panda express or grabbing a pop if I am tired vs just sticking to some water which would be healthier. I think first and foremost something that would help me is getting back into a more regular schedule in which I get up earlier every morning. Also try to go for a walk at least every single day or every other day...right now I am leaning toward every day with how much I am struggling I know people say its bad to work out for someone else but I want to look good for somebody else so someone can look at me when I take off my shirt and they're blown away and they say, "My man is sexy as hell look at that nice six pack

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're worlds. On my end, I had the best day I have had in a long time with a woman whom focused all her attention on me and listened to everything I had to say. We literally chatted for several hours without a care in the world and it was an incredibly remarkable feeling because it feels like we clicked. At the end of the evening, we kissed, and I felt like I was a star struck kid with a crush getting that first big kiss and my whole world literally just stood still. Writing this now, it kind of seems like a dream or something but it really happened and I am also smiling as well. Honestly, I don't know what will come from things but we're both into one another that much is crystal clear but at the same time both of us are understandably reserved considering what we've both mutually been through in the past I am semi reluctant to make anything crystal clear here because I am still feeling things out with her and am

Readers, Hey everyone I hope all is going great in you're worlds. On my end, I am doing good just drank my first cup of coffee and am also watched the movie The Heat with Sandra Bullock and Melissa McCarthy and it was laugh out loud hilarious, great writing, great acting, and it tugs perfectly at the heart strings. I'd say its defently worth owning the movie, The Heat. I love to write as I have mentioned in the past its something that helps me to clear my head and also have always loved to write poems. Here is one I wrote just now and its titled Monuments To: Monuments to the summer's end Ice cream trucks settled in musky garages A super super soaker tucked away A snow cone shake unfrequented An outdoor concert venue empty No warning There never is Longer days Leaves changed by the ghosts of artists past Gradual each day until its complete Finale for them standing quietly listening to the admiration's spilled Hot summer days washed away

Readers, Hey everyone I know not much has probably changed in your world's in between my last blog but I decided to write another one based purely around coffee. Actual coffee not the GTA brand coffee. Those of you whom follow this know damned well that I need my coffee and secondly the importance of my morning ritual. Those who drink coffee more regularly I'd imagine probably have that ritual of their own. For me its relaxing doing nothing serious at all...just drinking my first two cups of coffee and doing anything but be productive. Productivity gets put on the back burner until I am finished then its go time  Recently ie as of yesterday, for those who know and have read my blogs previously I do live with my folks while going to college. My mom changed brands of coffee she was buying and purchased some from Winco instead, the fill it yourself. Up to this point, I had gotten used to this rainforest brand coffee from Costco and thought it was okay and hell it was a lot bet

Readers, Hey I hope everything is going great in you're world's. On my end, I am sitting here listening to the new Miley Cyrus album, which is without an single doubt incredibly solid! Everything aside I think she is getting an extremely unfair rap. As far as I am concerned this new album shows she is incredibly musically talented and has slowly found herself. Now moving onto why this blog is sufficiently titled "End To Brilliance". I think it involves two events the first being the end of Breaking Bad this past weekend and secondly the death of Tom Clancy this morning. There are some people whom I talked to that I won't name names specifically but they said they'd have liked the show Breaking Bad to have ended differently. In my mind, after the major disappointment with how the show Dexter concluded this past weekend in my mind it was a true breathe of fresh air. No, don't worry if you're reading this I am not going to pull a bunch of spoilers out