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"Time keeps on slipping....slipping into the future"

Hey readers:

I think part of that lyric is quite fitting these days as it feels like the time is literally slipping right into the future. Its literally mid September right now and in the stores I am seeing Halloween costumes and candy for trick or treaters. Mostly these days as I spoke about in my previous blog it feels like I am finding less and less time for myself which could be a bad or a good thing I guess depending upon the way you look at it.

Mmm can't believe it come October than November I will be turning 27 years old that is something else that makes it feel like time is flying by. Its interesting how many of the things I recall now that say I mention or bring up and somebody else looks at me like huh and I want to scream really you don't know about that or know that band

Another interesting thing is this past week I went downtown Boise with my friend John and my friend Travis neither of us really drank anything honestly we just sort of ended up hanging out trying to play some pool. I say try because the pool table was literally missing a ball and I got to thinking how many of the people around me probably just accepted that as the way things are and probably didn't even ask for there seventy five cents back. Personally I jumped right on that before that I played some Shuffle board and even more so it seems like I really want to just go out and spend some time with friends am not crazy (but than again never have been about always getting wasted so to speak) just hang out as we did. Maybe it just feels like there are more people that go down there to get stupid and start random fights with folks ie just a ton of drama.

A huge lesson I think I have come to learn is the importance to telling the truth! I know right everyone says they don't lie but we do sometimes and usually over what may feel like something trivial or hey its cool it doesn't matter. But that little lie turns into more and more lies and eventually your slowly lying about everything as a whole. It creates a lack of trust in you as a person. I'd say always tell the truth no matter what the consequences because the people around you will respect you more. Not to get far too preachy on that but i think its something that can help everybody.

Well with all that out there I am going to cut this off and hit the books studying for my very first Commercial law exam (its tonight). Thinking it should go pretty good but want to be totally sure so today will mostly consist of doing just that. Hope all is well in everyone's worlds. If your having doubts or worries etc I vote start a diary/journal or even a blog like this one. With that i'll catch you on the flip side


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