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38 more days and a cup of chaotic with a piece of bread buttered with uncertainty

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Hey I hope all is well in your world's i'd say I am doing better on my end just feels like school has me in a monumental choke hold. Current worry involves not passing all my classes as I come more to terms with the fact that it feels like I have now been at BSU forever and its time to *move on* so to speak. Get out there into the job's world and start making some substantial money. Hell I can't believe next week its time to register for classes yet again but I am not 100 percent sure this time on any of my classes which is quite scary! Sometimes I guess how that is how things play out nothing is ever certain 100 % in that big way like nothing else.

Just had my second test for Commercial law and I am doubting i'll be getting that grade back tonight during my 6-9 class. I need to do an interview with two people for my class and another interview for my comm law class though its disconcerting still haven't heard anything back from Scentsy *crosses fingers* I also have several group things one group thing for ITM (though one of our guys didn't comment on the board

In the realm of romance I am not sure about anything except I do enjoy spending time with several people right now some more than others but after everything I am been through I am not in a hurry to commit and truly put my heart out there on the chopping block to potentially get mauled and mangled to pieces. Eventually its going to have to happen I can't always play my cards close to my chest or unlike others in my life i'll never ever learn the joy of settling down with someone whom loves me for me, raising a family, having a boy or a girl who comes to me because I am daddy and they want advice or cuddling. Damn straight I want all of those things I want to know what all that feels like.

This coming weekend I am looking forward to catching up with my friend Justin whom I have not seen in several years he is stationed in the Air Force over in North Dakota which is pretty cool it will be nice to really catch up and shoot the shit so to speak. There is that this weekend and spending time with my brother Robbie two very good things going on for sure. Mmm than the following Monday is Halloween which I am sure not certain if I am going to do anything for i'd love to go out and hang out with friends yet it feels like life is far too crazy right now.

Can't believe that in 38 days I will be turning 27 years old. Where has the time gone? And what have I learned? I think I have learned potentially the true importance of being cautious diving into anything all the way doesn't help. I know I have gained some stronger friends for example my best friend Jordan and his girl friend Kelsey. I truly would like to think I am more well rounded have have learned and gleamed a few important things for life.

Mmm with all that on the plate I am going to cut this off here once again hope all is well in your world's and thanks for letting me vent away and unloading this is oddly therapeutic and would recommend everyone do a blog. I'll catch ya on the flip side

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